Author Archives: Amy Jane Sandberg
Where do I start?
Where do I start?
My plans are not God’s plans.. Something I have learned a lot about, especially over the past six years.. However, GOD’s Plans are soooooo much better than mine!!! ❤ I can’t wait to see what he has for me next!!
I moved to Washington State, from Florida mid-January 2011. I looked forward to the adventure and change. But I’ve had this unsettled feeling. Inside, I knew I wasn’t to live with my parents, but I also knew I was not to be living with my sister Amanda. I couldn’t understand why or how but I would be living elsewhere.. My unsettled feeling, though fun in the start, began to change to the feeling that I didn’t belong anywhere…
After a few months had gone by my parents got a new place in a very tiny town. When I went to visit them I got the feeling I would be living there soon. Just like when my little sister went to college in Gainesville, I knew I would be going also! But the question was how, and when…. I began to become very irritable, impatient, and bad things kept happening… One week in particular was horrid… I got the flu, had a major allergic reaction and someone tried to break in, among other things, while I was alone in my sister’s house… As a result I had a major break down and cried my heart out to God…
I yelled at Him (Not the best Idea) Asked why my life was so hard, how and when would I see changes in it for the better? When would it be my turn to be happy??? Where do I belong, with who??? Ect….. After hours of crying and a nice warm shower, I had an amazing peace come over me… I slept the best I had in months…
The next day a guy I had known for years re-confessed his cares to me, and when I opened my heart to him I felt whole… It was as if I had blinders on, like some use to direct horses, lifted away and I was able to see how amazing he really was, and how sincere he is. It has been a few months and I am still with him, and still very happy!!!
A few weeks later I visited my mother and we decided to ask around about an apartment in the town. This town is very small but the school is amazing so places to live is scarce. We walked into the general store and asked the shop keeper. Before he could reply his friend announced he had a house he wanted to rent out… And asked if we wanted to see it… Of course we said yes.. It is a cute two bedrooms, a large living room / dining room, a big kitchen, a decent sized bathroom with a cool antique tub, a good sized utility room, a sweet upstairs loft and a decent sized front yard / fenced in back yard… He also told me he would allow my three cats which is the amazing part. (Not many people up here like pets though they seem to support rescues)
After a thorough inspection and prayer we told him I was definitely interested… We waited a week because he had offered it to another young couple with a child first, but they said no.. So it will be MY FIRST HOME!!!! And the story gets better…. He offered me a job to watch and feed his mother when he is away… The job I had years ago as a C.N.A. before I went to collage…
My new Landlord is cleaning up the house, repainting (he happened to have my favored colors), put new flooring in, along with redoing the bath room, put in a new heater, adding some air condoning window units. He is leaving me a fridge, stove / oven, the washer, the dryer… What a blessing!! My family has been blessing me with other needs that I could not afford… I will be moving in sometime towards the end of the month!!!
Isn’t God Amazing!!! He took my mess, my chaos, and turned it completely around because I was willing to let Him be in control, because I trusted Him, because He loves me… He did this all for me!!! I am soooooo thankful; the emotions are beyond words… Ever since I turned thirty things have been getting better and better!!!
NEWS RECAP:
*I’m Publishing a Story & Poem
*I got a new Home
*I got a new Job
*I have an Amazing Man in my life
*My needs being filled
*I get to keep my cats
*And I think I found an artist for my comic
Remember, sometimes it takes time to get what your praying for, just because it does not happen when you want it too does not mean it will not happen… God has a master plan! As long as you trust Him and let Him be in control everything will work out..!!!
The Devil comes only to steal from you, to kill you, and to destroy you! But I (God) comes to bring you LIFE (everything good + eternal life) and to bring it ABUNDENTLY!!! ~~John 10:10~~
~Amen
~*Amy Jane
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Amy’s News..
* Lately I have been wondering what can I do to better myself, for me and the people around me. So I am walking more, eating better, going out more, writing more, and trying my best no to let the tough situations that arise get to me like I was recently. I am so glad every day is a new day with the chance for me to keep improving. And I realized yet again it is a state of mind. If you wanna do better you have to think better. You have to train your thoughts.. Sounds easy right? A lot easier said then done yes! However when you have or can find a reason to be happy. The task almost resolves its self. If your happy, it is a lot easier to change the way you are thinking, to become better. Because I found when I am happy I want to do all the things I am training my mind for.. But that is only the start.. The hard part is following through… Which means for me, wake up, get out of bed and hop to it… I am really bad about getting out of bed in the mornings… I like to lay there and day dream all snug in bed….But hey… At least I know what my main problem is… I love my bed to much… lol….
* AS A REMINDER! I am having a small story, a quick overview, of what God has done for me, being published in a book. With a poem I wrote.. The book is called “A New Song” and should between Mid May – Late July. Please keep the book in your prayers.. My story in there is only a small taste of what the book I am writing is a bout. My book goes into a lot more details and accounts.. It is more emotional and heart touching.. But the story is the same too, just in a smaller context.. So reading both is good… Especially if you don’t wanna wait to see what God has done for me, and for my word to be back and running..
* I downloaded ywriter5 it is a program kind of like excell that is subposed to helm me keep characters, chapters, outlines of my book in order. Plus help me stay on track. I don’t have that trouble “yet” but it is a pretty cool tool.. And completely free… I just need to figure out how to use it… lol
* Since I can’t use word I am working on the new book, via Google Doc’s (I love ya Google) and it is flowing pretty nicly.. But in the mean time I am working on outlines, re thinking plot lines, developing characters, and creating a script / story line for a comic, I hope to find some one to draw for me soon…. I started it http://anovelife.wordpress.com (more here http://anovellife.smackjeeves.com/ ) But it didn’t start good and I wasn’t confidant in the story line I had. But now I am and it is much better.. I just need to find a good artist, willing to draw it when I get more done… I need an artist who can draw cats, dogs, trucks (insides) big breasted ladies, christian themed stories, and other goodies.. I don’t wanna give away to much… If your interested please post here. I would like it to be on a site where people could read for free or have to pay, or donations welcome… I would work out a payment plan with you and give you half the credit… if interested email me at coffeedreamr(@)gmail.com
*I have a busy day ahead of me. I’ll try and post more what is going on with me, but that is the main info for now…
* LAST THOUGHT BEFORE I GO I am still in between homes… God has a plan for me I know it.. I miss my cats dearly, and my family and friends still in Florida. So please keep that in your prayers.. Ask God to help me find a place to live where I can keep my cat and be close to my family.. Thanks!!
~Love ya!
~Amy Jane Sandberg
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Crazy??
Hello There,
I feel FRIED. I have been though three colds and a flu in the last month… On top of a few childish emotional outbursts. I haven’t had one of those in years!! Plus I hit a road block after writing so well all month. I had to take a few days off to clear my head. But I am feeling much better now. I watched and am watching some Koren Dram’s; sleeping better; and finally healthy. I got the entry for the book “A New Song” Just about done. I am on the last edit, it would have been done but I just didn’t want to write. I needed a break form the internet and people the past few days. I needed to clear my mind and was playing mediator between some people. I am wiped out… But I am happy now, and I have much inspiration. I am working hard on my books now. I hope to get them done soon. At least one first draft done by the end of the year.
I miss my friends back home, my cats, and most of all my family yet to join us. But the good thing about being lonely equals more peace and quiet time to write… I have been watching a drama called “Coffee House” about a crazy Author. And it got me thinking… Most stories about authors make us out to be crazy, unreliable, strange individuals… Is that true for me too??? I don’t think so, I know for sure I am not unreliable. I am one of the most loyal people you will ever meet. But I guess 7 years and still not a book done is bad.. Though four out of eight are more then half way done. And out of the seven years I didn’t write at all for three of them…… BUT I am back on the ball and I won’t drop it again… I need to finish them for myself even if you all won’t like them when they are done…
Take care,
~Amy Jane
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My Life as a Rurouni
Hello Every One,
If your not familiar with the term Rurouni, it means wanderer. It is a more romantic term then nomad. Which is what I am right now, traveling from one place to the next for weeks at a time. I don’t mind, it is an adventure! I have with me my cloths, my Bible, the books I am writing, my laptop, and some new shoes. 🙂 I don’t need more then that, however it would be nice to have some other personal belongings, so I could at least start to feel conformable. My pastor once said Comfort can be bad, which is true when your “settled into something” you sometimes don’t want to venture out of that comfort. I see my time now as a new adventure with lots of new leaning experiences, new friends, and much inspiration… God is so good…
So far I’ve been to two homes… I just got back to my “Main Temporary” place of residence. There is no way I will live in this house permanently. The house is great but the neighborhood is not even close to good. I am happy to have a roof over my head and a wonderful family that is so willing to let me stay here while I work on getting my books done and sorting out who I want to be and where I want to go with my life. That is a never ending battle with everyone I think, until they have that “deciding moment” and even after. We are but humans and it is hard to keep on track all the time. Unless you have amazing self discipline. Something I am working on.
My whole family is taking Major leap of faith moving out here, and though it has been hard on them / us. I see God opening doors for us all over. Even with the stress of money and separation, God is making a way where there seems to be no way.
Back to my books, I just started unpacking, I have my recent work hand written, and it will take days to type up all the pages I have written. But I am looking forward to getting back to them and I hope I’ll have the time stating Tuesday. One thing I will tell you I love Washington! I have only seen a little of it where I am residing is not good. However there are many beautiful places in this state! I especially love the West Coast. Oregon the other place I go to a lot is Even more Breathtaking!! Well from what I saw so far. Where my mother lives, and the drive there is wonderful! I will most likely live there in the future, near here unless I find a good man and get settled with him before I get settled near family. It is ALL IN GOD’S HANDS! And I trust him because he has shown me miracle after miracle, and has come through for me even when I could see no way.
I miss you all my dear friends, family that I left, and my Church! God Bless you all! Be safe!
~Amy Jane
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1 Week Left!
Hello My Friends,
Thank you for being patient with me. I am moving in one week!! I will be back online and active after I get up there,I have a lot I want to write about but I am limited on time and net. I have leaned new ways to think and control my emotions, I have dealt with stress in new levels.. But I have come out on top… Well I am coming out a winner in this Battle. It is not over yet, But I am still fighting! Seven days to go! I am very excited..
I am clearing out my closet, my stuff, and giving away lots of stuff I can’t take with me. Which makes me happy that I can share with others. I have deepened relationships, regained new ones, and lost a few over the move. But God has plans for me and I have so much I want to write about.
I’ve been running errands and seeing the local ares and I have been shocked at a;; the businesses and restaurants I have never been to. I am a little sad I won’t get to try most of them but I at least have leaned to open my eyes more and to take closer look at things and people thanks to this experience..I have been looking at this as a growth experience… We all go through seasons in life. Some we like and some we don’t but we always have room to grow and learn new things. One thing I leaned was I have become too self conscious of myself… I feel like at times the more I am myself the more people push me away… I am not happy about that. A dear friend of mind told me “Amy it does not matter who likes you, as long as you like yourself and be yourself. Eventually you’ll find people who will accept you as you.” It is some thing I didn’t realize I was struggling with till he said that. Now that I am aware of it I am working harder on being me…
I have been to selfish lately too… I am used to taking care of others because I like to, but I’ve felt burnt out lately and I stopped helping everyone to do my own things. My things are important too but what I did before is also needed. I should not have just stopped. And the guilt of stopping got to me and made me a real jerk. I am sorry…. Since I realized that I have been happier… Helping others is good, but before you burn out make sure you have time for your stuff too. Balance, though hard at times is the key..
I had more to say but I can not organize my thoughts as well as I would like currently, Though I am very inspired to write!! Love ya!
~Amy Jane
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The Date has been set~
Wow~ The date has been set. Jan. 18th 2011 I will board a plan and land in my new home state. I was scared when I first found out but now I am excited.. I am trying to spend time with people before I leave and it saddens me to leave them. But my family is most important other then God to me. Thus I’ll be leaving soon and praying the rest of my family is able to join me soon.
THE AWESOME part is I’ll have a lot of time and space to work on my books, and internet again. I have not had much time since my wonderful nephew was born and it pains me to be leaving him. I pray his mom and him will join us soon. Well thats all for now. I hope with the new year you find new excitement and Joy as well.~! ~Amy Jane
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No more Net! for a while..
Hello My Friends!
I am with out net now.. I lost it a few weeks ago and will not have it again until I move, which is who knows when. The good news is more time to get what needs to get done when it needs to get done.. For the most part. I had a cold then a sore throat. But now I am good… I have so much to get done and only a little of my liust complet of need to do things before I move. Christmas comes first, then I will go back to spending money on other needed things.. Thankfully I have been getting pet sitting jobs that have helped me save money for my needs.. Anyway I can’t stay on, I am at a friends house useing her computer to post here and clean out my spam in my e-mail. The rest I can do via my new phobne (See my comment on my last post)
I have been writing a bit, but my time is a little limited untill I clean out my room and update my files.. (Working on that this week) So I am not giving up on my goals just because I lost my net. I don’t need it to write, but I sure do miss the dictionary look up feature. lol.. Just to make sure I got the right word for what I want to express.. Any ways… I still don’t know how to post here via my phone but I can e-mail so drop me a line ok??
AmyJane27 @ gmail. com (remove the spaces)
Take care!! ❤
~Amy Jane
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I am Moving soon…..
Hello My friends!
I am moving some time in the next 3 months.. I am not sure on the exact date because I have to wait for some things to get done first and that takes money and time….
Things I am waiting on:
New Tires
Engine Tune Up
Fix My Laptop
Medical Apts
Medical records – transfer
AND MUCH MORE!
If I was moving down the road or to a different town it would be no big deal but I am moving to a new state. So there is ALOT to get done.. My sister already left, my mother leaves in short time… Then I will go and latter the rest of my family will follow… So If I am a bit out of it and not keeping up to date with you all I am sorry I have a lot on my mind and plate right now… I am also going to loose internet soon for a while. I am not sure how long…
Please keep me and my family in your prayers!!
~Amy Jane
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A sneak peak of Miracles Still Happen Today
Here is a sneak peak of an entry in my book “Miracles Still Happen Today” (A Rough Draft)
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It had been a busy day and an amazing week so far! I was worried about many things and very very far from home. We took a tram up tow thirds of a mountain and I was challenged by my sister to walk up the last one third of a mountain, up to the tip top. Where a large wooden cross stood.
We could see it from where we stood and it looked to be very far away. It seemed like a great idea. However, just walking up to the trail from the tram, I was out of breath. I had been walking trails daily and one of the days there I walked at most eight miles. Which was awesome! It was by far the most I have walked in years that I know of. And this trail is by far less then that. I am not sure but it is about three miles at most. But the trail is hard. And in honesty, I was a bit sacred and excited.
I had to stop every thirty seconds it seamed ~~~ After only five minuets I was out of breath as if I had just walked those eight miles.. I begin to panic. There was no way I could walk this trail. And definitely no way I could make it all the way to the tip top, where the cross was.
The trail was very narrow, barley enough room for two people to walk side by side, and in some area not even that. It was also full of big and small rocks with lots raised roots. Most of the time the trail was extremely close to the edge of the cliff or a ravine. The only thing separating me and the edge at times was a small bush, or some rocks. The trail was also very muddy, wet and slippery in many places, and the stairs had no railings.
I collapsed on a rock on the side of the path and told my sister to go on with out me. I was out of breath and having trouble catching it. She reluctantly walked away saying she was gonna check out the next part of the path up some stairs. She had such a sad look on her face. I do not recall exactly why, maybe the look, or maybe the thought of her going alone. But I got up and walked up to her at the top of the stairs. I told her I would walk the normal path but not to the cross and we had to do it slowly. She did not argue.
You should know this trial is one large loop. From the tram around the mountain top and back to the tram. With a side trail up to the Cross. You could go either way depending on your preference. One side had lots of stairs and one had mostly natural trail. We chose to go trial up, stairs down. (Something else you should know I am allergic to some bees, I am not sure what kind)
Many people passed us along the way, most on their way down… (Most of them seemed to have chosen Stairs up. Nine out of Ten had something encouraging to say to us. Such as: “It is well worth it, The view is spectacular!”. The view was a most spectacular! I will not disagree there. Even from the bottom of the trail. It was breath taking and surreal. I keep telling people Alaska is proof God exists! The beauty of the state is surreal and breathtaking no matter where you go. But this was one of the best views I have seen in my whole life. The only thing second to this was all the shades of the ocean colors and the scenes we saw out on the whaling ship.
We were about half way around when we came across the path to the cross. My sister told me she would regret it if she did not go on it. I told her I would wait at the observation station that they had there at the fork. Again she said ok and I watched her walk away. And again I felt the sudden need to go with her. Even though at this point my chest burned as if on fire inside especially every time I took in a breath. Yet, I stood up from where I was sitting and followed.
Less then a minuet latter I found myself hunched over in tears. I could not breath, I could not see. I was loosing consciousness I knew it… I was falling to the ground, but before I could fall, I stopped my self with my hands and I took authority over my body in “Jesus Name” and started praying in the spirit. The verse Philippians 4:13 came to mind. “I can do all things Through Christ who strengthens me.” and I could hear God say in a faint whisper. “Just take a step” I knew it was him because there was a fire inside me screaming don’t give up! Listen! So I did the only thing I could. I obeyed. “Take another step” He said. I obeyed. I was seeing spots every where but my vision was back.
I was did not tell my sister what I was going through, I am not sure she would have believed me, nor I am sure she knew I was struggling as much as I was. I repeated the verse out loud, over and over again for about five steps. I was still hunched over as I walked but I was moving forward!
We still had a bit to go. I was moving, but very slow saying the verse out loud and in my head over and over again with every step. I wondered what my sister was thinking about me or the people passing by. And I was unsure if my body would obey my will. Now, I heard with every step. “One Step At a Time” I kept my eyes on the ground because I did not wand to see how much more we ad to go. And I obeyed God. I quoted the verse “My Strength is renewed like Eagles” Isaiah 40:31 and Psalms 103:5 along with Philippians 4:13.
Around a corner there was a swarm of bees. I was very scared, but I put on my jacket as fast as I could, pulled the hood on and as far over my face as I could, and I held it tightly closed, walking a bit faster now. Everything hurt inside and I felt as if I was wearing a heavy belt around my waist with a rope attached to the center of it. And God was at the other end of the rope pulling me forward. I had no energy of my own left. I felt as if I was sleep walking now.
Before long we, I made it to the cross!!!!! I can not explain in words the Immanence amount of Joy and the feeling of success I had at that moment. I was was moved to tears, and if there were not people there already I would have burst out crying. Just thinking about it now brings tears to my eyes. It was such a Faith and a Physical struggle. But since there were people there I did the only thing I could. I hugged the cross closed my eyes and I praised God! I then used the opportunity to witness to the people who were already up there. I don’t know if what God has done for me touched them or not but I do know I planted a seed.. I believe that everything we do know knows and even when we do not obey Him, because we have free will. He is still there trying to guide us. We have the opportunity to obey or not to. I also believe he directs people in our paths for a reason. I think those people with the encouraging words helped and I hope I helped people as well and I pray I still am and can for many-many years to come.
I know there was no way I could have made it up to the top on my own. God was there with me all the way up, and is always with me. And once we made it there my Energy was resorted just like the verse. I am not lying. I felt like a rock on the way up and suddenly I was full of energy. So may say it was Adrenalin kicking in, (though if it was it should have a while before that) and If it was I am sure God was the one who did that. But It was not adrenalin like you would thing. I felt refreshed as well, like I had just started the walk. It was as if I had not just struggled up all that way. It was as if I had just woke up full of energy. God had restored my strength like an Eagle just as the verses I was saying before. No one but God could have done that for me! It not only did it help me learn to listen better it helped to teach me to be obedient, and on top of it all I felt extremely loved and and full of peace too… And I had that feeling for the rest of the day too. Going down was not easy and still scary with the no railing stairs but I knew and know I have God on my side.
I am not sharing this so you will go out and do something drastic to get closer to God. I am sharing this in order – to show you – that God is always with us and willing and will help you in your time of need. All you have to do is call on him and trust him, and do as he tells you. I had no choice not to do as he said. I was stuck up high, I could have gone down alone but I did not know my way. So I decided to trust God to give me what I needed to continue on. And he did!! And now my faith in him is stronger then ever and I am reminded I can do anything with him at my side!!
Amy Jane's World 
Out of Town Again
Sep 19
Posted by Amy Jane Sandberg
Hello Dears!
I am out of town again. And enjoying a much needed break.. And paying a visit to my Cardiologist. I have been so inspired lately and was geared up to write while away with no distractions… But silly me forgot my notes on the current book I am working on… So I guess I will just have to work on something else.. Maybe I will actually get a few chapters of my other book written… I am getting so sick of editing and re-reading my work.. Yet, I have to, because when I can not work on it constantly – with No interruptions – I loose my place and forget what I was working on… I wish I had a personal assistant… And a secretary… Any one want to volunteer?? But you would have to work for free since I can not afford to pay you… I am barley making bills as it is.. Which sucks.
Oh well, At least I am good and can do it myself… Has any one other then my dear friend Saberleo read my last preview of my book??? Does any one here read what I am posting for you? Should I bother sharing it here still??
I like to think I have people reading my blog, I mean the page view count goes up a lot weekly.. But no one comments? May I ask why?? ~.~ I like getting feed back, I can not improve with out help…
Ok I have to go my travel friend is sighing.. I think she is bored… I hope to be able to post more for you all to read in a week or so.. Maybe less. Take care, be safe, share your love with those you care about!
~Amy Jane
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