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Love One Another?!
Hello all,
How are you doing? How have you been? You know I really do care about my friends, my family, people I meet, and you!
I do not just say that, I truly mean it. I have have quite the life I have had a lot of hardships, challenges, rough times. I have had lots of blessings memorable, unreal and treasured moments. All of which has taught me to be who I am today. I am far from perfect but I work hard at staying cheerful, upbeat, kind, non judgmental, and encouraging loving. Not just because I am a beliver in Christ; who teaches us to Love one another. ツ John 15:12-13 “My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.”
There are over 30 verses in the Bible talking about how we should treat each other as believers, some are listed here: https://www.biblelyfe.com/blog/bible-verses-to-help-us-love-one-another
Often times we forget that we are all human and we all have needs and emotions. We all have unique life’s. I say this all the time.. How you treat others matter.
Are you nice, do you loose your cool when you react ? Do you hold on to anger? Do you hate? We aren’t perfect and honestly the world we live in right now makes it harder. You are constantly asked what side you are on Pro whatever ——- Anti Whatever………..?????
I really don’t care what faith you have as long as you aren’t out to attack others. Our current society is pushing us to become divided and to turn us against each other. Don’t tell me I am wrong. The evidence is all around you.
We spent the majority of the past two years, where I live, to keep a distance from each other. That included Family and other grop gatherings, parks, restaurants, stores, ectara – were closed. There was forced separations from each other. We were mandated to wear masks. Almost completely shut down all forms of travel. So much so we got used to being alone and living in fear in our homes. Forgetting how to react to people we actually come in contact with. We are now face to face literally with people. However with the news and groups promoting fear and hate to others of all sides tryingtokeep us separated if not physically but also mentallyandemotionally… Am I wrong?
I don’t know about you but I do not want to live a life of fear. I want to live a life of Love. I don’t care what side you are on. You are welcome to your own opinions and feelings. I am not trying to devalue them. If they matter to you – they matter to God. So they matter. At least that’s How I feel about all the subjects.
I do not want to be judge and jury. I would rather change the world one person at a time with Love. To let you know you matter and that you are important. No matter what you think or “so called side your on” . God loves us… He loves you and we have a bigger enemy out there that wants to drive a wedge between us all and tear us all apart.
He is the Devil….. My favored verse isn’t ツ John 10:10 for nothing. It says : The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. Meaning Jesus came so we could live a better life if we so choose too. Have you ever taken the time to think about your actions? Your words? That what if you do and how you treat others matters?
I am not here to scold or punish you. Nor is God. He loves you and He wants the best for you. ツJeramiah 29:11 “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” He doesn’t want you to waste time beating yourself up… Heck I am sure you already struggle with your self worth enough. That’s why he encourages us to love one another. Because Love is powerful and it changes lives. Think about how much we could change if we could come together and work together for the good. Hate only leads to war and lives lost….. Is that what you want? More death? I am not trying to be dramatic but I think we all need a dose of reality… Maybe that’s what I should have titled this post instead of Love One another….
How do you wanna change the World? Honestly – It is up to you who you want to be and how you want to treat others.
You have more power then you realize… Please start thinking about your actions, your words and how you can love the people in your life and treat the strangers you come across. Anger comes easy. You have to work at kindness and love.
What is remembered more? Acts of anger or acts of love in your daily life?
( I am not referring to abusive relationships’ those are bad and if you are in one you should and seek help! )
I can say honestly I often forget about being cut off, treated badly after a while. However acts of love stick with me. Why? Because they touch my heart they heal my soul and lift me up.
If you know about DeepyRootedInHim.net you may me asking why didn’t I post this there. I choose to post this here because the topic is so close to my heart. Because it is my main message in life. If I do anything in my life or I am known for anything. I want it to be that I helped and encouraged you to Find Love in your life and to be loving and kind to others. That’s what Valentine’s Day is all about right? It celebrates love and to me it’s not just for couples but for all people. That’s one of the greatest things my Dad ever taught me. To treat all with respect and love. If they deserve it or not. Pray for them, Ask God to heal their hurts and try to forgive their mistakes and wrongdoins… Because holding anger and hate in your heart hurts you more then it hurts anyone else..
Happy Valentine’s Day!
Good night 😴
💕Am yJaneSandberg
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Another Year.!
Hello Everyone,
Guess what, it’s my birthday. Yes, April First is my birthday. I wasn’t supposed to live but I did. Another year has flown by. I am truly grateful to be alive. Life has not always been easy. Honestly, life has been quite a struggle at some points. There’s been times where there seemed to be nothing but darkness. Times when I’ve had to literally and figuratively crawl to move forward.
Yet there’s been times of true miracles and blessings. I’ve been miraculously healed of being brain dead, and from four stokes. I have had some truly amazing and wonderful experiences. Such as: working with celebrities, going to college, hosting events, traveling – exploring new places, and worked passionately with ministries. I have dealt with losses and even depression at times. Especially the past few years. God has also given me loving family, man, and friends. I have always tried my best and trusted God with the rest. Especially when it comes to major life changes. We have to be careful not to miss those moments of God’s guidance, grace, and direction. Sometimes I wonder if I have missed a few. I know I m where I am supposed to be at the moment. Yet worrying about the past changes nothing. You have to focus on the future and enjoy the day you have. Because each new day is a precious gift!
I have really had a full life so far. I’ve been told that I have probably only lived half of my lifetime thus far…
Truly the future is so unpredictable. You can plan all you want but life has a way of throwing you curve balls. Be it in baseball or bowling, they happen. That is why I am truly grateful for God’s amazing love, for giving us Jesus Christ and the HolySpirit. My best friends. Without which I know that I couldn’t make it on my own. I understand that life isn’t perfect. It is dang hard at times! However, God’s timing and love are perfect. Tho at times it is very hard waiting for the answers we need / want. Sometimes things happened that hurt. But God is Love and God is good. My life is living proof of that.
1 John 4:7-10 KJV
Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God. He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love. In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son (Jesus) to be the propitiation for our sins.
Psalm 100:5 KJV “For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.”
It would be so easy to feel sorry for myself. Yet I choose to live with optimism. When you let fear, doubt, anger, resentment, and unforgiveness in. They can and will destroy your joy, hope, faith, love peace and health. The Bible talks strongly about guarding your heart. King Solomon said it best: “Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life” (Proverbs 4:23) With that said… It is important that you treasure the people who are in your life more than things and temporary trials. Those come and go but having people to share your life with is the best gift of all.
I ask you as your birthday gift to me tell someone in your life how much they matter to you. I feel there is too much anger, and resentment is going on in this world. We each have a choice to make a difference even if it’s only in one person’s life. Your effort counts. You matter and you will probably never know how much you truly matter, yet you are treasured and loved so much; By God and others! Trust me I know there are people out there who value you even if they do not show it. With that said……
!!!Thank you Lord for my life!!!
💕 I really appreciate you all. Your encouragement means a lot! God Bless You Today and Always! 💕
ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane Sandberg ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
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Hey There World…
Hello friends,
It has been a bit since I said hello👋.
Hard question to answer? It can be huh… You matter! Honestly you should be asked how you are more often. Sadly that isn’t always the case or possible. So here I am asking you.
-I am also here to say to you and I –
Getting back on topic, I thought I would stop by to say Hi. While giving an small update. I’ve thought other then just talking about what is going on around me and in the world, I’d talk to you about myself and some thoughts that I’ve had.
Where do I start… Hmmm. I am not in depression, tho I’ve been there before. Although sometimes I feel like I’m dancing on the edges of it constantly. Yet, I am always having to be on guard, staying strong looking for those silver – linings…
Which reminds me of a passage in the Bible. Stay with me please even if you don’t belive. I’m not trying to sway you. I am a beliver in Christ, yes. Even if you are not, I wanna ask you to have an open mind. I wish share something that has helped me. Maybe it will help you. Maybe not… Please at least read the blog post in its entirety. Thanks.
Psalms 23 <KJV>
1 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
I’m not gonna dissect the whole thing. However, I feel it’s important to share the full character. What I want to talk about is this part- “Walk in the shadows of death, I will fear no evil.” I didn’t fully understand what the shadows of death meant for many years but now I feel like I do. I remember it like yesterday. I almost ten years ago, I was driving through a canyon. It was a sunny day out but the canyon cast a complete shadow over the long road that I was driving. Then suddenly it clicked for me. To me, that verse meant constantly surrounded by death, yet not dead. Not to be morbid, but true…
My life kinda drives that point home. I’ve had so many near death and serious life threatening situations; due to heath as well as just living.
Do you want a current example being surrounded by the threat of death. Many people would say covid (whatever you want to call it.) is right now the major death threat. Many would also say that it is everywhere and its breathing down our necks constantly… It is a threat in so many ways. A perfect example for my topic. We try to live on but everywhere and everybody effective, affected, and talking about it. Why… Due to covid our lives have been turned upside – down and inside – out. Why? Because the threat of death is scary!
This post isn’t about covid tho. I am just trying to make a point the fear of death is truly scary. You never bern afraid of death before, never had it thrown inbyour face so dramatically. Lets be real death is scary point blank! No matter where your faith lies. And- if – when your always afraid of it – then you’re not fully living…. That verse Psalms 23:4 points out the true fact Death is everywhere constantly threatening. To me that suns up depression pretty well too. Depression is a sickness based on fear, self worth ect… Always there hiding in the shadows waiting and wanting to attack! That sums up a lot actually.
With that said, It has not been easy for me to open up, let alone write for quite awhile now.
I haven’t been depressed, but I’ve been in the shadows of depression. For over a year now honestly. Not just because of Dad, but other things as well. I haven’t even touched my books in months. If you know me and follow me, you know how important they are to me. It has taken me weeks just to write this post. I have been emotionally and a bit physically feeling like I am running on fumes- out of gas.
Depression, fear, anxiety, and emotions, seems to been running rampant. Fear, especially of the unknown, is really trying to take center stage. For a while it was successful at it. Not just for me, for so many otheres, I know and some I love, as well peopleI have briefly crossed paths with. Fear is a powerful enemy. Just as depression, loneliness and self-worth. All the above is more powerful now then ever… These stresses’ can really wipe you out, and severely damage your life. Not just mentally and emotionally, but also they can be physically crippling. I do not say that lightly. 😒
Usually its best to go talk to someone. I’ve got God, Jesus, and The HolySpirit. For that. This is my go to verse, the one I live by. “The Devil comes to steal, kill and destroy; but I come to bring Life and to bring it Abundantly! –John 10:10 Along with “I am the good Shepherd; the good shepherd sacrifices his life for his sheep” –John 10:11
= Jesus. Jesus is my Shepard. So I will fear no evil, like Psalms 23 says. Even when it gets gets hard.
Personally I am just trying to adjust to a new lifestyle and re-figure out my place and goals. While I get through the grieving process of loosing my dad, my dog and our cat last year. I do not like to mention or talk about the rough hardships nor how negative it gets and feels at times. I don’t like to be weak or show weakness. But God showed me it is apart of the growth process and I needed to write about it.
That way I can help others like me maybe, you. I bet I am not the only one who feels down, and stressed too. But keep fighting for yourself, keep looking for the silver linings in life. They may be small but they can have huge impacts, if not now possibly later. Either way they’ll encourage you to smile even if its just for a moment. Trust me. I know. That one smile is a small step towards more smiles.
I remind myself everyday of all the accomplished and stuff I have been through.. which is a lot… Also that I have a purpose and I owe it to God, myself and my loved ones to stay positive and to keep smiling through it all. Especially when I don’t feel like it. I suggest that you also remind yourself of your own accomplishments big or small. Along with your survivals as well… I highly recommend you build yourself up especially when you don’t feel like it.
Here’s a few pictures to briefly recap some of the hardships that I have lived through.
I broke my foot and was in a boot for almost 9 months. 
I had my 4th stroke. 
Was in deep depression for no reason. 
Depression 
Went to hospital for Arteral-Flutter 
Not sleeping much at all anymore. 
Dad almost lost his foot 
After all dad survived and a recovery, he moved to heaven. 
My youngest sister had two near death experiences in 2020 one giving birth and one later in the year. 
Grieving and fighting depression again. 
Still covid drama around the world. Me trying to entertain you. 
Me infront ofvtbe last painting dad did. 
Making myself go out and run dr check up, dentist visit, errands when I’d rather stay home 
Completely drained and burnt out physically, mentally, and emotionally. But staying strong 💪
These images are proof if I can survive this I can get through the current and forthcoming temporary challenge too.
Its hard for me to be vulnerable. I truly try to stay tough and cheerful. But when I don’t express myself I end you ferling worse then before or have an emotional moment. I tried to keep all the moments captured in images correctly ordered. It is a little hard to do via my cellphone. Sadly lost a lot of pictures due to computer and phone issues. Including the involuntary removals from social media sites. Thus, I don’t have many online anymore. I’ve learned that you just have to make the best of what you have. Easier said then done, I know… A lot of theses pictures are from previous blogs I’ve written. Some I may not have covered here but in preson, but will in my books. Don’t forget thatI and my mothe. Have some Video blogs on www.deeplyrootedinhim.net
Now here are some more positive memorable achievements and moments from my life so far…
I was asked to wite a short story for this book. What a great opportunity! 
A New Song Poster 
Printing of the book, Exciting! 
Inspirational 
One of tbe best birthdays. 
Started A Novel Life 
I turned my short story into a small book with images. 
Only printed one books mostly full of poems and short stories. Just for myself but working on a better version updated extended. 
I re-did my short book adding to it and editing it with a new cover. 
Started doing more events. 
Fellow authors and I 
My editor and a real life close friend. Road trip 
https://anovellifellc.com/ 
https://anovellifellc.com/the-team/sara-tassill/ 
https://anovellifellc.com/jay-jay/ 
https://anovellifellc.com/gina-wynn/ 
Created an e book version. 
Inside look. 
Unique E book look. 
My book is listed at walmart e books 
Started a gaming channel on youtube.com 
Friends made DeeplyRootedinHim youtube vblogs logo. 
My Friends made me this fan group. 
Painting by my editor for me. 
Finally made it to, Azuza, CA 
My book at the library’s app overdrive 
Helped dad re do parts of driveway. I am strong enough to be a good helper. 
Love from delivery people. 
Get well cards from my 3rd last sugery at 16. 
One of the many road tripsI went on. My brother, dad and I when I was 20.
This is not all I’ve survivied or accomplished. I don’t have the time or space to go over each event. I have years worth of posts here from instagram and Facebook as well. For you to read if you really want to know more. I promise to keep working on my books; those which I pray will change and help your life in a positive way. Not every day is promised so all I can do is give you the best I can and trust God with it.
I realized in doing this post just how much I’ve gone through and how little I’ve opened up about. Repression always cones out in some form. Sometimes not in the best complimenting ways. Thus it is better to talk about what goes on and what you neded. You matted. Don’t take the people in your life for granted, and open up to someone.
We are not alone. I have friends, family, and a wonderful man. Even if i was by myself I have my faith in God. I see Jesus as my bestfriend. With the Father, Son, Holy Spirit, in my life. As you do too if you so desire. That gives me and you a reason to keep moving forward.
I wake up and thank God for a new day. One full of possibilities and chances to spread love -joy, be productive, and spend time with the ones we care about. Its not always easy for sure, but its better to try then give up. My passion is to spread love and joy. To encourage you that you are treasure. That you are loved and mattered especially to God.
Here are some places you can reach out to if you don’t know who to talk to or don’t want to discuss anything about it with people close to you…
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The mental health issues related to our lockdown and the pandemic are especially hard for people with depression. NAMI, The National Alliance on Mental Illness have a 24 hour helpline: 800-950-6264
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https://www.nami.org/help
〰️What-does-NAMI-stand-for-and-what-is-its-mission
NAMI offers support and education programs for families and individuals living with mental health conditions. NAMI recognizes that the key concepts of recovery, resiliency and support are essential to improving the wellness and quality of life of all persons affected by mental illness.
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〰️Lifeline
We can all help prevent suicide. The Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals.
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane Sandberg ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
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Never Give Up
Hello all Good Day!
How are you doing? Especially with all the chaos and stresses that are going on with the crazy world right now. I know this year is extra rough for our family. Especially for mom and I. Not only did we loose my dad in April, after he survived so many trials so suddenly… We also lost some pets. My one of my parents twin cats, mainly my dad’s ran away, or or was abducted Early June… We’re still hoping she will come back. Then my Great Dane and best friend passed away less then a month ago. Talk about rough… I understand that some people may have it worse but this is extremely painful 💔 😢.
That’s not all of what’s been going on. I’m not going to mention the little things. Our whole family is struggling with so much right now… Mom’s been really strong. My parent’s are my real life heros for a reason. We were both in a deep depression. We are doing better tho. Taking it one day at a time. This depression was the 2nd worst I’ve been through. The thing about depression is you seem ok at some points then you get knocked down and out of nowhere. Its like a panic attack or anxiety attack without having the full symptoms. You feel numb, trapped, like a shell of a person, if even a person. Maybe a you are robot… I told my man. It’s like I have theses support walls up, but inside theres nothing but broken rubble. For the past several years I’ve been taking care and supporting my dad. We were very close and were together most of the day until he got better. Then he started doing his own stuff but it didn’t last long. He suddenly had cancer and ended up leaving us because of heart failure. Anyways…
It sounds funny but Frozen 2 actually helped us, especially my mom. Mainly Ana’s song “The Next Right Thing”
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“The Next Right Thing” lyrics:
I’ve seen dark before, but not like this
This is cold, this is empty, this is numb
The life I knew is over, the lights are out
Hello, darkness, I’m ready to succumb
I follow you around, I always have
But you’ve gone to a place I cannot find
This grief has a gravity, it pulls me down
But a tiny voice whispers in my mind
You are lost, hope is gone
But you must go on
And do the next right thing
Can there be a day beyond this night?
I don’t know anymore what is true
I can’t find my direction, I’m all alone
The only star that guided me was you
How to rise from the floor?
But it’s not you I’m rising for
Just do the next right thing
Take a step, step again
It is all that I can to do
The next right thing
I won’t look too far ahead
It’s too much for me to take
But break it down to this next breath, this next step
This next choice is one that I can make
So I’ll walk through this night
Stumbling blindly toward the light
And do the next right thing
And, with it done, what comes then?
When it’s clear that everything will never be the same again
Then I’ll make the choice to hear that voice
And do the next right thing
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Kristen Anderson-Lopez / Robert Lopez
The Next Right Thing lyrics © Walt Disney Music Company
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Neither of us could have gone through this alone. Not without the help from God / Jesus / The Holy Spirit, our loved ones and our friends. We still gave a long way to go but we are all pressing forward one step at a time with lots of love and prayers.
I am starting to remember who I was and who I am subosoed to be. I want to hold on to that.
Remember matter what your doing this week, working or playing – Smile. It is a a choice we make. To let things get to us or to smile and move forward. knowing you can and will survive – whatever your going through: Losses, Rude people, things keep going wrong, etc. Whatever it is, know tomorrow is a new day. Look for the good in the bad, smile and show the world you won’t let anyone but you control how you feel. That to me is what a real warrior does. Now go have an Awesome week!!
🤔Depression seems to be going around….😔 Know that You matter❣ Know that it is ok to admit that you are not ok and need help or people. THERE’ IS NO SHUH THING AS PERFECT ❣❣❣❣ We are humans, an all have issues, fults, and needs. But also remember that you are AWESOME and needed!!!! Even if you don’t feel that way… It is the truth ❣❣❣
Here are some places you can reach out to if you don’t know who to talk to or don’t want to discuss anything about it with people close to you..
〰️💕💕💕〰️
The mental health issues related to our lockdown and the pandemic are especially hard for people with depression. NAMI, The National Alliance on Mental Illness have a 24 hour helpline: 800-950-6264
〰️What-does-NAMI-stand-for-and-what-is-its-mission
NAMI offers support and education programs for families and individuals living with mental health conditions. NAMI recognizes that the key concepts of recovery, resiliency and support are essential to improving the wellness and quality of life of all persons affected by mental illness.
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❤💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍🧡
〰️Lifeline
We can all help prevent suicide. The Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals.
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
Remember that you are not alone and that you are loved!!!
💚 Amy Jane Sandberg 💚
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I am here…
I have been on the go the past few months. I now have time to write. I think I’ll be getting a lot done too. Even with the crazy holiday season halfway over… I’ve already done much of the heavy work. I’ve been helping dad fix the driveway. The tree roots are raising the driveway up, and since they want to keep the trees we’ve been redoing certain areas and leveling the driveway out. First by removing the old driveway, using a aircompresser chizzle, then digging under the roots so they go down. then proceeding with re-taring the area. My main job is to dig up and shovel the old driveway ect, and replace the gravel with him…. Then together blowing out the craks and caulking the them up all along driveway to the road. Dad even did sone of the road as well… I’m always learning new things when I help dad. It’s not perfect, but it works! We got so much done, just before it snowed. We started before I left and finished after I came back.
Also while I was gone dad started redoing the back bathroom. He removed the old linoleum flooring and flooring and removeing the old toilet. I came back just in time to help him add the new stuff. Tho really he didn’t need my help. Dad is doing so much better then he was. I am truly impressed with his recovery. God is so good! We make a good team. We don’t always get along but we both work hard. We got it done just before company came!
Now I’m just gonna write while I relax in my pajamas. Just because I can! 😆 Yay- a writer’s life! I will get back to my youtube vblogs, my blog, and do some Facebook group this week I hope! I have a few more important tasks first…
I will do my best to keep everyone updated so stay tuned! Don’t give up on your dreams or goals, any progress is still progress. So follow your dreams because you matter. Make sure you take time to breath and enjoy life too. My goal in life is tovspread joy and stop hate. I choose to be happy 😊 even when I don’t feel like it. Remember God supplies and miracles happen!I chose that book 📖 title for a reason!
Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!
╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮
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The Forth and Last leg…Part 3
Hello Fellow friends,
Well, I am home now but I had a wonderful time with my man and his lovely family. I learned so much about him and all of them. We did so much with and without his family. My man and went on dates and walks. It was really nice. I got him some shirts he liked and some collector books he wanted. He got me a Totoro purse and wallet and some lotion and body spray too. It is not about the things, to me, the gifts are special because they are from the one I love! As for the rest of the family, they have to wait for Christmas…
When we spent time with his family as well as doing outings and everyday tasks.. We didn’t go to the beach or Disneyland but we did go to Medieval Times! I hadn’t been there since I was thirteen for my friend’s birthday in Florida. Here are some of the pictures I took. I hope they don’t mind me sharing them.
One weekend we watched movies and games. I even exchanged birthday and Christmas gifts as well with him. One of the weekends we had an outdoor bbq, watched a movie on a projector and did some rock painting, played soccer and other outdoor games.
I really enjoyed the one on one time with his mom too. We had a nice heart to heart talks. She even gave me a very sweet heartfelt gift from Starbucks as a surprise one night! It is special for so many reasons. It has all the state specialty emblems, I collect cups, it was a surprise, it showed she cared and was thinking of me. I wish I could have done so much more for them! I wish I had got to know his dad more tho too.
I stayed for almost three weeks. When I had free time alone worked on writing my books in progress.
I can’t believe it is only a few days from Thanksgiving!! I look forward to coming back there often. It helps that the man I love has family in California. I totally felt at home with his family and in California. I was really nervous about staying with them but I think it went well. There was so much more I had wanted to do with them and for them. I miss them all so much. His family is my family as well. That’s how I feel in my heart. I never felt uncomfortable or out of place. I just wish I could bring them all back with me! It would sure make things easier for us all. California is one of the few states that I wouldn’t mind moving to. Though I am unable to take permanent residence there mainly because of my Medical specialists and health care requirements.
I can not believe I had to say goodbye. It really broke my heart. I cried so much. I keep telling myself it is not over tho and we will be together again soon. The most important thing is I have so many wonderful memories from this trip and all the trips I have been on this year. I can not express how much I appreciate everyone and everything. To me making memories and spending time with the ones you care about is more important than anything else. Remember to take time for your loved ones and friends as well! I feel so refreshed and drained at the same time.
Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!
╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮
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TheThird Leg of the Trip Part 1
Hello Y’all,
How are you today? I am doing well. I am on my third leg of the trip. I left Arizona a few days ago. It was awesome! Our hotel was one of the best I have ever stayed at. It was huge, with a restaurant, a cafe, sports activities, several pools, gardens and in a fun area. I adored the whole place and I hope to go back one day! We also went to a cactus garden and went to a butterfly garden and an aquarium with some insects and reptiles. It was my first time seeing a rainbow chameleon and poison dart frogs in person! I Loved all of it. Just wish I could have got to the titanic museum too.
https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=2172078352892170&id=165899490176743
Exciting right! It is a bit nostalgic for me living out of a suitcase once again for the past two months. Just like I did when I first moved in 2011. As I have been doing so for almost two months with only a week and a half at home in-between. I have been making sure to work on some of my books during my downtime… I’ve been mainly switching between two main books. When I get stuck on one I work on the other. Apparently, I am not the only writer who does this. I see the challenge of re-writing what I lost as part of a character challenge for myself. I am very determined to get some books done as soon as I possibly can. 🤔 I was gonna participate in NaNo. Obviously, I can’t this year. Funny last NaNoWriMo I was traveling as well… Maybe next year I can join in NaNo. Here is the link if you are interested in participating, or curious about what it is. Good luck, break a pen! https://www.nanowrimo.org/
Why am I traveling you ask? Why not? I love to travel and enjoying time with people. Life keeps everyone very busy but is important to enjoy life. If you are lucky enough to get a chance to spend time with people, especially those you care about you shouldn’t pass that up. Most of the best Christmas movies are about busy people not taking time to enjoy life and time with their loved ones. The main Characters then remember what was most important to them. Then a Christmas miracle happens or Santa gets involved and things get better. If you were in a Christmas movie what would the storyline be? To answer the question seriously as to why am I traveling is mainly because I had the chance to help my sister😀 and to go on the trip I had planned for in July. 🥰 I want to make the most of life and not pass up any opportunities! I do not want to have regrets in my life.
I was planning on doing some live videos along the way, but honestly, I get shy on camera and stumble over my words. So like the picture says I write better then I talk. I am grateful that I have met some awesome people! I love how everyone is unique and awesome in their own way.😄 Along with having new experiencing and seeing new places as well! I met a pretty famous author without knowing it until now. That was pretty neat. As I say famous people are just normal people too.
This is where I enjoyed several days outside listing to birds and getting inspired.
Grackle birds make the most unique beautiful sounds. I really enjoyed spending my mornings and afternoons with them. We have black ones here but now one believed me. I will try and take a picture of one and post it later. They are my second favorite bird besides vultures.
Grackles are quite the efficient foragers, and will even steal food from less savvy birds. They are omnivores and will eat anything from bugs to minnows to different types of berries and seeds. Of course, these birds aren’t snobby at all and will snatch human food at a moment’s notice. Common Grackles are blackbirds that look like they’ve been slightly stretched. They’re taller and longer tailed than a typical blackbird, with a longer, more tapered bill and glossy-iridescent bodies. Grackles walk around lawns and fields on their long legs or gather in noisy groups high in trees, typically evergreens.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quiscalus
Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!
╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮
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My blood test is in
Hello All, Me again!
Well, who else would it be? *giggles* I have good news. You can watch the video or scroll past and read below. The video is only about two minutes long.
My blood levels are almost exactly where they need to be… The Spinage did the trick and you could say my PT/INR was re-set. Now it should all be fine. I go back in two weeks to make sure. Woot!
Other than that I am still cleaning… Sadly – my place was a mess, but not worthy enough to be on one of those hoarder shows. You know what I am talking about right? It wouldn’t take me so long expert I am going through every little thing and throwing stuff away or setting aside for donations. Along with that, I am sorting through my computer files looking for lost books and stuff I need to organize again. While I take care of pets, run errands, update social media and of course write. I was sick for so long I am way behind where I want to be so I am working hard to catch up and making sure I am not overdoing it. I am not the night owl I used to be, as I get stronger I will be back in full motion. Keeping a smile on my face helps. Life is stressful enough… I wanna spread smiles not stress! I am working hard to stay positive but at times it is overwhelming.
I am an author by definition, how I live my life and how I treat it is like one would treat a book being written. Authors are people too. Just like actors and singers. I wanna keep it “real – down to earth” as some may say. I want to show you that no matter how hard things get. You can survive this and you are not alone!
Also, yes I believe in Jesus, I do not believe I would be alive if it wasn’t for him. LITERALLY! There have been so many close calls… I talk about my faith here and there, it is my blog/website after all. As a writer, it just comes out because it is part of who I am. Yet – I will not force my faith on you. I believe in Love. Love can make a huge difference! I believe Jesus died for everyone – no matter what race, gender, or choices you make. Jesus loves you. John 3:16 It is up to you what you do with that knowledge. It is not my place to tell you what to do. It’s your life and your choice. I do want to say tho – Miracles are real, You are loved, and you are not alone if you don’t wanna be. Someone asked me once what if Jesus and God were not real at tge end… I answered: “If they aren’t that at least I choose to live with hope and it gives me strength believing there is some out there with me and looking out for me. I do believe that they are real tho 💯.
For one- The Bible says in the book o John Chapter 1 verses 1-6 (NIV) 1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God,(B) and the Word was God. 2 He was with God in the beginning. 3 Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made.4 In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.
Furthermore, there’s evidentiary proof all around. My life is also proof. I am constantly profounding Doctors.
╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮
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Three weeks after…
Hello there,
Firstly, I did a faith Video blog just before my doctor’s appointment today for those of you who are interested.
Good news is everything seems good except but my blood is good so far. As I mentioned before because of the new medicine they are concerned about my PT/ INR levels. (A prothrombin time (PT) is a test used to help detect and diagnose a bleeding disorder or excessive clotting disorder; the international normalized ratio (INR) is calculated from a PT result and is used to monitor how well the blood-thinning medication (anticoagulant) warfarin (Coumadin®) working to prevent blood clots and strokes. My blood has been too thin. Which can cause internal or external and excessive bleeding, especially if I get injured.
If you are not taking blood-thinning medicines, such as warfarin, the most normal range for your PT INR is “0.8 – 1.1”. My level range to prevent stroke should be between “2.5 -3.5”. However, it has been ranging between “6.4 – 10 something”. The finger prick machine only reads up to “8 or 10” on average. I was as high as “12” in the hospital. Another thing that complicates issues is I’m allergic to heprin/wafarrin. That means if I’m given those my blood clots right away. It is super rare so I’m told, but it is also hereditary. Dad is allergic to those too. But at least he doesn’t need them like I do. I have to have Coumadin / lovanox shots only.
Having taken that into consideration they told me it was better to have high INR vs low while testing for my new meds. Since I’m specally complicated they decided to put me on Metropol like my dad. What I can be on is extremely limited because of the blood thiner allergy.
I am home and have been home from the hospital for three weeks now. It has been two weeks since they changed my dose from 25mg to 50mg. The only options to thicken my blood are:
🔹️1. Take a pill that costs me up to $600.00 out of pocket since my insurance won’t cover it.
🔹️ 2. Go get a vitamin K shot at the Emergency Room. Which may take a couple hours.
🔹️3. Eat things with vitamin K in it. All theses years I knew certain foods were good for thining, and thickeing tbe blood. I just didn’t realize there were two types of vitamin K. (https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/vitamin-k1-vs-k2) . For example, Spiange would be a great source of the right Vitim K. Yay! That also saves me a ton of money which I am quite limited on right now.
🔷️ My Doctor decided the shot was Would be dangerous, it may thicken my blood too much. He decided to have me to hold off on taking my medicine for a few days and eat some spinach (I Love Spinach!!! It is my most favored Veeige, no Joke!) and to be re-tested Monday… So that is the plan!
Also For those of you who also follow Deeply Rooted in Him and our Vlogs, I also did a new post there. http://deeplyrootedinhim.net/2019/08/11/that-did-not-go-as-i-planned
Besides all that medical stuff I am really cleaning out my apartment, catching up on my writing, my paperwork, websites, blogs, and Youtube channels… I have a lot to do but it is getting done. I am glad to be alive and getting the chance to continue working on my dreams and goals even when faced with trials and setbacks. I can not begin to express my gratitude to all of you who support me and encourage me and stand by me despite all that!
╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮
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This Happened…
Hello, new and old friends. For those of you who are new, I have was born with Truncus Arteriosus, a congenital heart defect. I was the third person in the world to have my whole heart rebuilt, I have had three open-heart surgeries, been in two comas, had four stokes one of which caused me to be brain dead when I was twelve.
Here’s a short book I wrote about my medical past, including being brain dead and in a coma. On sale until September 27th.
https://www.amazon.com/Amy-Jane-Sandberg/e/B00NF9F0OY/
I’ve been doing great recently so I thought. Yet, I wasn’t. Things were falling back in to place but I was just sick and tired a lot. I started having what I thought were “new panic attacks”. I’ve had my fair share of varied panic attacks due to medical PTSD, they are also hereditary on my mother’s side. Theses “New Ones” tho, I had none of the usual symptoms other than my heart racing for a few mins to a couple hours. Usually, they only happened before bed and when I woke up. I had been dealing with “New Attacks” for almost a month. I had no pains and no stamina. I thought I was just out of shape, so I kept trying to be productive, but when mid-afternoon came around I was spent.
When I went to doctor for antibiotics July 16th 2019, I needed for a trip I was preparing for. I was having one of those “new attacks”. I met a medical student who started asking me a ton of questions while waiting for the doctor. They were not unusual questions for a med student to ask me. I told him all about my history and what was going on… (I was there anyways right. Just be honest and tell him I’m having a new panic attack.) He then asked me more random questions. I don’t remember them all. I told him what I told you above, he took my vitals then left the room to get my primary. Who in turn came in to immediately run an EKG- Electrocardiography -It’s a test that records the electrical activity of your heart through small electrode patches that a technician, nurse, or doctor attaches to the skin of your chest, arms, and legs. My doctor then disappeared with the results and came back on the phone with my cardiologist. Honestly, at that point, I was getting scared. I called my mom and told her something was up and asked her to pray.
My doctor put my cardiologist on speaker who proceeded to tell me my heart was racing pretty fast and my rhythm was irregular. I started praying under my breath and asked how serious it was. My cardiologist told me he wasn’t able to answer that question because he’s not there and instructed that I go to the hospital with a trustworthy Truncus Arteriosus colleague of his. Because he was four hours away and his colleague was only two. I was worried and teary-eyed at that point. He told me because my heart was racing and irregular.
I had three choices:
🔹️1. Go to the local Er and have them transport me via ambulance.
🔹️2. Have someone drive me as soon as possible. 🔹️3. Do nothing hope it stops but he’d rather I not risk it.
I asked if I would need surgery. He said he was pretty confident it could be handled via medication. So I pulled myself together and went to tell my parents what was going on, only to find my dad already in the waiting room.
I chose option 3. I convinced my dad to meet me at home then we’d drive the two hours there. Honestly, an Emergency Room Ambulance transfer would’ve taken longer and been a bigger hassle for everyone. My mom opted to stay home because it was already 5pm and she knew dad would probably stay the night. Someone had to watch the dogs. Even tho she wanted to be with us, I told her it was fine. I reassured her that I didn’t feel bad in any way, I was just tired. When we got there it was close to seven-thirty pm. The check-in and triage went smoothly because my cardiologist had called in ahead.
At around midnight I was still in the Emergency Room, they gave me an IV for fluids because I was dehydrated and drew lots of blood. After running a bunch of tests. The doctors on call told me I had a flutter in my upper arteries and my heart rhythm was out of wack. They gave me some medicine to see if they could calm my heart down and wanted me to stay overnight. I was really nervous, something like this happened to my dad a few years ago after a heart attack and he ended up needing a defibrillator implant. They reassured me I wasn’t having the same issues as he had.
I found reading my Bible out loud calmed my heart a bit which was very good. My rhythm went from dangerous to not so good. Honestly, I don’t read my Bible as often as I should. Yet, it goes where go and where I sleep always! I find having my Bible close, especially at night gives me peace.
They soon sent me to a room and gave me a heart monitor to wear. (I posted pictures below) All night long they were coming and checking my vitals. I barely slept, I was praying non-stop, and reading my Bible.
The next morning after running more EKG tests and taking more vitals, they realized my heart rate was not changing and my rhythm was not getting better. When they first told me I had a flutter I thought they meant a generic flutter. I’ve had PVCs before, due to my odd heart so I really didn’t think anything was going on.
(PVCs) are -Premature ventricular contractions: extra heartbeats that begin in one of your heart’s two lower pumping chambers (ventricles). These extra beats disrupt your regular heart rhythm, sometimes causing you to feel a fluttering or a skipped beat in your chest.
Apparently, A flutter stands for Atrial flutter – Your heart misfires its electrical impulses, bringing on an irregular or fast heartbeat in the upper chambers of your heart. Making it to fast or to slow. To slow is more dangerous. PVCs and A-Flutter are common for CHD (Congenital Heart Defect) people. A Flutter is different from Afid which is what my dad had among other things.
Around 11 a.m. they came in to discuss a plan. Really – I didn’t have an option. If I wanted my heart rhythm to be good again without surgery of sorts. I had to agree to their plan. They would do an ultrasound, a TEE, and if all good tbed shock me via a defibrillator.
Around two pm they arrived to do an ultrasound- (image using sound waves to produce pictures of the inside of my heart externally.)
Then they prepared me for a TEE (-A transesophageal echocardiography. Which is a test that produces pictures of your heart. Using high-frequency sound waves (ultrasound) to make detailed pictures of your heart and the arteries that lead to and from it. Unlike a standard echocardiogram, the echo transducer that produces the sound waves for TEE is attached to a thin tube that passes through your mouth, down your throat, and into your esophagus. Because the esophagus is so close to the upper chambers of the heart, very clear images of those heart structures and valves can be obtained more detail than a standard echocardiogram can give them. The sound waves are sent to your heart by the probe in your esophagus that are translated into pictures.) I was escorted to a small room after and I was given me some liquid to gargle to numb my throat, and some to swallow so they wouldn’t damage my throat. The anaesthesiologist used to be a nurse for children with Congenital Heart defects and she was talking me through it with great patience. This test had to be done In order to make sure I had no blood clots in my heart. I got panicky when my throat went numb. I thought I wasn’t breathing. (Remember, I went in sick with sinus issues, and was breathing through my mouth mostly.) The woman reminded me I had oxygen on and it was currently at 97%. She then gave me a little sedation to calm me down. While telling me that it is quite common for people to feel that way. (I wondered if that was true tho.) When I was able to swallow again, my throat still numb, I told her. She said good, and that she could see the cardiologist coming. He introduced himself, told me the plan, asked me if I was good. The next thing I knew I was waking up a couple hours later. I’m pretty sure they had said that they were going to keep me mostly awake for the TEE, but I guess they were worried I couldn’t handle it. Thus, they put me completely under. I won’t lie, I’m glad they did.
While I was sedated. They didn’t see any clots and went ahead with shocking me. Which put me back in my normal sinus rhythm and my heart rate is mostly normal now. So I was told.
My throat was sore from sinusitis, but after that, numbing stuff ect it actually felt better… My back and chest were a little sore the next few days but only because they did the defibrillator shock to reset my heart. I was in the hospital a total of five days and six nights. All the while they closely monitored me and searched to find a bata blocker that would work on me.
I’ll admit it. I cried a several times when I was alone, due to fear of the unknown and known overwhelmed me. I was also subpose to be going on a big trip. It was important to me for various reasons. The biggest reason tho was mainly to see my man and meet his family. They had told me I’d be able to still go. I shouldn’t be in the hospital more then a day. Obviously that wasn’t the case. I’ve been wanting to go on this trip for years… I am not exaggerating. Something was always getting in the way tho. And now I was was was in the way. That was one of the biggest reasons I was upset. I sad I had to cancel / postpone the trip yet again. I had no choice, and no I dea when I could go again tho. They said I shouldn’t be flying for at least three months. Thank God I purchased a ticket with insurance. Even tho I was finally getting better. I was heart broken.
When I couldn’t sleep or relax. I’d flip through my Bible and read random passages writing down anything that stood out or encouraged me. Like- Mark 5:36 “Daughter, thy faith has made you whole, now go in peace.”
I was an IV blood thinner, not heparin. I don’t know the name (I’m allergic to Heparin and Warfarin. It is genetic and rare… I posted info and links below.) Along with my Coumadin just as a precaution.
I was later given a shot like ENOXAPARIN (LOVENOX), DALTEPARIN (FRAGMIN): <A Low molecular weight heparin injectable anticoagulant blood thinner used for both the treatment and prevention of clots. They are produced by chemically breaking down heparin into smaller-sized molecules. But something newer instead, but non-heparin based.>
Called: FONDAPARINUX (ARIXTRA): Fondaparinux is a synthetic blood thinner, acting similarly to low molecular weight heparin. It blocks the clotting activity of a blood-clotting protein (factor X), and it is administered via an injection under the skin once daily. Because at one point my vain blew from the IV leaking into my skin. I also had bruises all over too from all the blood draws they were required to get. I have small picky veins from being poked since I was born and often they like to be difficult…
My whole arm up to my elbow became an ugly dark purple for almost a week… The pictures make it look better than what it really was. They had to keep an Iv in me so they switched arms.
One of the last mornings I was there, I felt bad because I scared a phlebotomist or Iv tech when I was half asleep by being a brat. I haven’t had the best expeinces in my medical life and sometimes PTSD is a b…… I made sure I apologized and explained I wasn’t fully awake and was thinking something else was going on at the time… I think after that they were a bit scared of poking me tho… However, most the time I tried to stay positive and in a cheery mood. They were one of the best hospitals I’ve had to stay at ever.
Again, I posted links below for those of you who wanna know more…
I usually don’t talk about what goes on with me anymore. I was really shaken up. I’ve been so good for so long, with minor scares. I put off going to the doctor mainly I guess because, I was afraid of what they may say. I was also worried about my family and all we’ve been through lately. I didn’t wanna cause them more stress.
I asked so many questions. I especially asked them about a cause or trigger that could’ve avoided this happening. He said there really was none, it’s just something that happens to congenital heart patients; especially those with Truncus Arteriosus.The doctors said A Flutter can be pretty common for Trunkis Arterosis and other CHD patients. If not caught in time it can really damage your heart. I really didn’t think anything of it because I had no pain and panic attacks are common for me. It was a really scary realization of what was going on within me. It’s a good thing they caught it before it got worse.
Please take care of yourself and if something doesn’t feel right or it is out of the ordinary, make sure you talk to a doctor.
Other than postponing my travel plans some good came from the hospital stay. I always believe good can come out of every situation, even bad ones… I was able to meet some wonderful people including some “Zipper Sisters ” from Facebook. They were such a blessing to me and a nice distraction. (Again I had pictures but they seem to have poofed I will add them when if I can find them…)
I am doing so much better, just getting used to the new medication. I see a big improvement in my activity, abilities, and sleep. I’m still a bit sore and my arm is finally starting to look natural again. I am still shaken up from this experience and having issues sleeping alone at night like when I got home after my second coma….
With congenital heart defects, you need to see your cardiologist regularly. I was told I may never have another attack again, which I pray will be true! I’m going to make sure I take care of myself. I’m now on Metropol the Beta-blocker and beginning to feel like my old active self again for the most part.
God bless you all and thanks for reading and supporting me!
🔗https://www.webmd.com/heart-disease/atrial-fibrillation/arrhythmia
🔗https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/8887.php
🔗 https://www.medicinenet.com/atrial_flutter/article.htm
🔗 https://www.ihtc.org/injectable-anticoagulants/
🔗https://www.ihtc.org/heparin-induced-thrombocytopenia/
🔗https://www.ihtc.org/intravenous-anticoagulants/
╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮
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