Hello all Good Day!
How are you doing? Especially with all the chaos and stresses that are going on with the crazy world right now. I know this year is extra rough for our family. Especially for mom and I. Not only did we loose my dad in April, after he survived so many trials so suddenly… We also lost some pets. My one of my parents twin cats, mainly my dad’s ran away, or or was abducted Early June… We’re still hoping she will come back. Then my Great Dane and best friend passed away less then a month ago. Talk about rough… I understand that some people may have it worse but this is extremely painful 💔 😢.
That’s not all of what’s been going on. I’m not going to mention the little things. Our whole family is struggling with so much right now… Mom’s been really strong. My parent’s are my real life heros for a reason. We were both in a deep depression. We are doing better tho. Taking it one day at a time. This depression was the 2nd worst I’ve been through. The thing about depression is you seem ok at some points then you get knocked down and out of nowhere. Its like a panic attack or anxiety attack without having the full symptoms. You feel numb, trapped, like a shell of a person, if even a person. Maybe a you are robot… I told my man. It’s like I have theses support walls up, but inside theres nothing but broken rubble. For the past several years I’ve been taking care and supporting my dad. We were very close and were together most of the day until he got better. Then he started doing his own stuff but it didn’t last long. He suddenly had cancer and ended up leaving us because of heart failure. Anyways…
It sounds funny but Frozen 2 actually helped us, especially my mom. Mainly Ana’s song “The Next Right Thing”
“The Next Right Thing” lyrics:
I’ve seen dark before, but not like this
This is cold, this is empty, this is numb
The life I knew is over, the lights are out
Hello, darkness, I’m ready to succumb
I follow you around, I always have
But you’ve gone to a place I cannot find
This grief has a gravity, it pulls me down
But a tiny voice whispers in my mind
You are lost, hope is gone
But you must go on
And do the next right thing
Can there be a day beyond this night?
I don’t know anymore what is true
I can’t find my direction, I’m all alone
The only star that guided me was you
How to rise from the floor?
But it’s not you I’m rising for
Just do the next right thing
Take a step, step again
It is all that I can to do
The next right thing
I won’t look too far ahead
It’s too much for me to take
But break it down to this next breath, this next step
This next choice is one that I can make
So I’ll walk through this night
Stumbling blindly toward the light
And do the next right thing
And, with it done, what comes then?
When it’s clear that everything will never be the same again
Then I’ll make the choice to hear that voice
And do the next right thing
Songwriters: Kristen Anderson-Lopez / Robert Lopez
The Next Right Thing lyrics © Walt Disney Music Company
Neither of us could have gone through this alone. Not without the help from God / Jesus / The Holy Spirit, our loved ones and our friends. We still gave a long way to go but we are all pressing forward one step at a time with lots of love and prayers.
I am starting to remember who I was and who I am subosoed to be. I want to hold on to that.
Remember matter what your doing this week, working or playing – Smile. It is a a choice we make. To let things get to us or to smile and move forward. knowing you can and will survive – whatever your going through: Losses, Rude people, things keep going wrong, etc. Whatever it is, know tomorrow is a new day. Look for the good in the bad, smile and show the world you won’t let anyone but you control how you feel. That to me is what a real warrior does. Now go have an Awesome week!!
🤔Depression seems to be going around….😔 Know that You matter❣ Know that it is ok to admit that you are not ok and need help or people. THERE’ IS NO SHUH THING AS PERFECT ❣❣❣❣ We are humans, an all have issues, fults, and needs. But also remember that you are AWESOME and needed!!!! Even if you don’t feel that way… It is the truth ❣❣❣
Here are some places you can reach out to if you don’t know who to talk to or don’t want to discuss anything about it with people close to you..
The mental health issues related to our lockdown and the pandemic are especially hard for people with depression. NAMI, The National Alliance on Mental Illness have a 24 hour helpline: 800-950-6264
NAMI offers support and education programs for families and individuals living with mental health conditions. NAMI recognizes that the key concepts of recovery, resiliency and support are essential to improving the wellness and quality of life of all persons affected by mental illness.
We can all help prevent suicide. The Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals.
Remember that you are not alone and that you are loved!!!
💚 Amy Jane Sandberg 💚
There was a massive fire only a street away from our house! It was super scary!!! It was started by a bad power-line. The flames ran up the side of the mountain and on to the bluff we live… It was defiantly life changing… Fear is powerful, it is brain numbing too at times… I rarely have faced a situation where I lost the power to think. I was mentally and physically frozen for a few minuets. So I prayed… Because that is what I do when I know not what to do, I ask God. And then I made mental notes of where the animals were, where what I needed to save was… I was faced with the reality. It is really interesting what really goes though your mind when faced with the question- There is a fire, what is the one thing you save? If the fire reached us, I would loose so many items, some collectors, none of them as important as the my family and pets… The first thing I thought of, was I have no pet carrier for the cats, what will I do with them? Let them outside to fend for themselves if it comes to it, animals are smart and they have instincts would they make it? No… I’ll try and wrap them in a towel put them in the car hope I don’t drop them on the way down… If I must I will… I told myself Then I quickly found my dog leash, and got her downstairs. (I live on a second story with stairs on the outside.) I kept a close eye on the fire. I have to say the Firemen were fast, brave and awesome! The news said we had only seven fire trucks, but I counted about thirty-three of all types.. There was even helicopters working hard to put the fire out!
I was about to pack up and get us all of us out of the house but then I looked over to the empty field next door and saw about ten deer peacefully eating grass and sleeping. After that I felt peace and I knew we would be safe. Just then the wind shifted and instead of blowing north it stated to blow west… Which was good! Soon after that They had the fire out near the homes, but the fire moved fast west… The poor firemen worked well into the night and into the next morning to get the massive fire out.
We were so blessed not to have any homes or people hurt in our small town. The firemen did an awesome job! God is so good! Sometimes still when I see smoke I quickly go over the emergency list I have prepared in my mind, what I need to do etc as i it were a natural reaction… Fear is a funny thing and very powerful… This whole thing was super scary but a great lesson of faith and a real test. One which I am glad we didn’t have to take!
♥Love ya, Amy Jane Sandberg