Hello, it has been a while… Welcome back!!
First of all I want to say that I am sorry for not posting more. Even tho writing gives me joy and fulfillment, I just haven’t had the desire for it as of late. I’ve been dealing with a lot of emotions and life changes. My heart is still healing from the losses this year. I won’t go into them at this time, I will in the future. I did not want my work to be brought down to the level I was on. It is not is place I wish anyone to be in. Not only that but there is real chaos going on in our country and world.
Usually I do a reflection of the year and all things good for Christmas. Then around New Year’s I discuss all that I want to see and accomplish. I had full intention of doing just that. Evey time I tried, I just couldn’t put my thoughts and feelings into words. Honestly, my heart just wasn’t in it. I did start and do still have some blog drafts.
However, they are not really life related. Mostly all just game talk. I’m sure those will be fun. I’ll get around to posting them probably in Febuarry. I again I just haven’t had the desire to write. Shoker I know!! Here’s why…
God willing. I say that very seriously. So much is going on right now the last thing on my mind has been sitting at a computer. Every day is so important and every person is a gift. I am still fighting my own sadness. Yet also saddened by all the hate and division going on right now all around the world.
It isn’t right nor healthy… I was raised that our words and our actions matter… That we have to be productive, and responsible. We have to be people of our word, loyal, honest, and examples of Jesus’s love. Why? Because it is right – Because it makes a difference and Because it is what would Horner God. He sent Jesus His so for us to be blessed out of love. (John3:16) We are to treat others how we wish to be treated. You say you may not care… But I thinks you do… No-one likes being neglected and treated poorly.
You nay not feel like you deserve love, nor feel loved. However you are loved and no one does. That’s why Jesus did what he did for us!!!
Now back to tbe chaos…. I still have a strong faith in God. Despite all the drama, and conflicts going around. It is so much more then a game of he said she said. People are attacking people, friends turning aginst one another over various reasons big and small. An example being: difference of opinion. I don’t want nor approve of violence or hate crimes.
People are not communicating well, even on the same sides. Things are being taken out of content and some are being cut off and silenced. For what? I am truly scared of the future at hand. We all have a choices to make…
I am not happy about all the forced silences going on. It just doesn’t feel right. No matter what side your on. Violence and muteing has never been a good thing in my opinion. I won’t go further into that. I am glad I can freely share my words with you all still. I love our country and I’m very concerned about the future of it. We all have choices to make.
All I can do is be myself, stay positive, stay strong and keep praying. I hope we find some positive chances soon. Remember that you matter. You may not feel like you do, but I’m telling you that you are a treasure. You may not see it but the ones around you do. Even if they don’t tell you. I am telling you right now-
I encourage you to seek reasons to smile. Even if the reasons are small. Remind those you care about how much they matter to you as well. Try not to stay angry or hurt others on purpose. Treat others how you wish to be treated. Every day you wake up is gift. It may not be easy but we have to move forward. We do that one step at a time. We may not be happy and hardships are sure to come. But you can move forward if you choose to. It is harder to let life pass you by and have regrets Dont live a life of regret and anger.
We have to encourage eachother and set good examples of Christ Jesus’s love. Be sure sisters and brothers in Christ we are being watched and judged. We are humans but we are called to spread the gospel and we can only do so by developing a personal reallationship, truly knowing Jesus as our friend and reading God’s word the Bible.
Thank you for stopping by and giving me a moment if your time to share my thoughts and feelings with you. I am truly grateful for you.
Yes you. Guess what…. You are a warrior! Did you know that? I don’t say that lightly. I mean it whole heartedly. Life may have treated you badly. You may have been bullied. You possibly were: physically, mentally, emotionally, or even – sexually abused. You may have had a tragedy or two happen. You mY have a physical problem, or health isues… (maybe all the above.) Well I’m talking to you…. Yes, you….
Those experiences, or situations you have gone through don’t make you weak. They are not your fault, and God is not punishing you!
Mathew 9:10-13 <New American Standard Bible -NASB> ”
Maybe you thought that God was mad at you, or you had bad karma… Well I want to set that straight…. Take a deep breath… This next part may be hard for you…
You need to tell others how you are feeling or when you are in need. If you don’t speak up and tell someone what’s going on. We can’t help you. Speaking out or asking for help. It takes great courage. Doing so it is important. PLEASE talk to some. Because- You matter, you are important, and you are loved.
It really angers me when I learn of people hurting others. Especially if it is physical or sexual violence. My mamma bear wants to come out and retaliate. I have been witness to some really bad people’s actions. It makes me cry for those who are hurt and hurting. Knowing how I feel about it, and knowing God loves us all <John 3:16> I can’t imagine how much more it pains God to see his children suffering an hurting each other.
If you have suffered from anything its not from God. <John 10:10> You are a survivor! You are a warrior!!! Use the trails you have been through to encourage and help others. Just being you and living your day to day life, you are an inspiration!
You are strong, you are loved and you are not alone! You are a warrior!!!
╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮
Happy Birthday to me!! Yes this sound a little vain, but let me explain… Today as you guessed it is my birthday! I am… If you know me I have always valued Birthdays to the max. I make big deals about everyone’s birthdays. Because Life is a blessing!! My mom’s birthday is April 6th. So I’m 33, Where has the time gone?? So mych has changed in just the past 4 years…
A Bit of History: The past few years I haven’t really celebrated my birthday. If you didn’t know my whole immediate family used to work at the “Kennedy Space Center” in Florida. Since NASA shut down the Shuttle Launches, my family’s life has been quite crazy. Everyone lost their jobs… My family started relocating spreading out moving way one by one. Everything was different. We were extremely close family. I mean every one has their issues but, its great when you have such a great family close by. So it was a huge finical and emotional strain. That was about 4 years ago.
In Jan 2011 I packed 5 suitcases and moved across country because God told me to. It wasn’t easy leaving all I knew and making that jump of faith. I took turns living with my mom and sister Amanda, living mainly out of 1 suitcase… It was quite the adventure really… Mainly because their landlords wanted to raise the rent if I would be permanently living with them. So I rode the train back and forth.. Not knowing when I’d feel relaxed and at home… But after about year I got my first rental house, which I loved! In a very small town, within a canyon. Birthdays’s were hard to get together for and often spent alone. Last year I moved again, which I was a bit angry about at first bit its been great since.
Last years Birthday was the worst I will ever remember! Because we got word my brother was very ill with cancer, so we all got together and went to go see him. (It was a blessing we were all together but, we completely ignored our birthdays.) It was very touching, very draining and over all very hard……
So when this year came along I was mad at the loss of loosing my brother, I was mad we’re all apart yet again, due to life. I only reached one goal, publishing my short story “God Supplies and Miracles Happen”. Honestly, I was depressed and angry… But I choose to buck up and clean my apt… I have come to the conclusion that cleaning brings you closer to God. You work out your stress and vent your emotions… Now I understand the saying “Cleanliness is close to godliness”.
This morning when I woke up, I was refreshed and reminded why Birthdays are so important. They are to celebrate life, life God gave us! No matter where we are, or who we are with, we need to take joy and be happy we can live another day, we have another day to work on our goals, etc.. So I am happy its my Birthday!! The day I was born into this world. Even with all the hardships I’ve endured, (not as much as some) I am happy to be alive.. Another day full of experiences…
If you are a gamer… The higher level you are the more experience you have, the better your gear and skills are… If we look at our ages as game level…. It makes aging so much better… So where ever you are, whomever your with, be happy about your age, and celebrate life to the fullest!!!
Now please excuse me while I go get ready to go run some errands and go to an early dinner with my Mom, and this weekend my sister Amanda and her Husband will come visit. And my mother and I will officially celebrate our birthdays together with all four of us… She’s the bigger person sharing her special day with me.. I am very blessed…
Ps. By the end of the year we will all be in one state again!! Even tho we may be a few hours apart its much better then across country!