Never Give Up


Hello all Good Day!

How are you doing? Especially with all the chaos and stresses that are going on with the crazy world right now. I know this year is extra rough for our family. Especially for mom and I. Not only did we loose my dad in April, after he survived so many trials so suddenly… We also lost some pets. My one of my parents twin cats, mainly my dad’s ran away, or or was abducted Early June… We’re still hoping she will come back. Then my Great Dane and best friend passed away less then a month ago. Talk about rough… I understand that some people may have it worse but this is extremely painful 💔 😢.

That’s not all of what’s been going on. I’m not going to mention the little things. Our whole family is struggling with so much right now… Mom’s been really strong. My parent’s are my real life heros for a reason. We were both in a deep depression. We are doing better tho. Taking it one day at a time. This depression was the 2nd worst I’ve been through. The thing about depression is you seem ok at some points then you get knocked down and out of nowhere. Its like a panic attack or anxiety attack without having the full symptoms. You feel numb, trapped, like a shell of a person, if even a person. Maybe a you are robot… I told my man. It’s like I have theses support walls up, but inside theres nothing but broken rubble. For the past several years I’ve been taking care and supporting my dad. We were very close and were together most of the day until he got better. Then he started doing his own stuff but it didn’t last long. He suddenly had cancer and ended up leaving us because of heart failure. Anyways…

It sounds funny but Frozen 2 actually helped us, especially my mom. Mainly Ana’s song “The Next Right Thing”

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“The Next Right Thing” lyrics:

I’ve seen dark before, but not like this
This is cold, this is empty, this is numb
The life I knew is over, the lights are out
Hello, darkness, I’m ready to succumb
I follow you around, I always have
But you’ve gone to a place I cannot find
This grief has a gravity, it pulls me down
But a tiny voice whispers in my mind
You are lost, hope is gone
But you must go on
And do the next right thing
Can there be a day beyond this night?
I don’t know anymore what is true
I can’t find my direction, I’m all alone
The only star that guided me was you
How to rise from the floor?
But it’s not you I’m rising for
Just do the next right thing
Take a step, step again
It is all that I can to do
The next right thing
I won’t look too far ahead
It’s too much for me to take
But break it down to this next breath, this next step
This next choice is one that I can make
So I’ll walk through this night
Stumbling blindly toward the light
And do the next right thing
And, with it done, what comes then?
When it’s clear that everything will never be the same again
Then I’ll make the choice to hear that voice
And do the next right thing
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Kristen Anderson-Lopez / Robert Lopez
The Next Right Thing lyrics © Walt Disney Music Company

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Neither of us could have gone through this alone. Not without the help from God / Jesus / The Holy Spirit, our loved ones and our friends. We still gave a long way to go but we are all pressing forward one step at a time with lots of love and  prayers.

I am starting to  remember who I was and who I am subosoed to be.  I want to hold on to that.

Remember matter what your doing this week, working or playing – Smile. It is a a choice we make. To let things get to us or to smile and move forward. knowing you can and will survive – whatever your going through:  Losses,  Rude people, things keep going wrong, etc. Whatever it is, know tomorrow is a new day. Look for the good in the bad, smile and show the world you won’t let anyone but you control how you feel. That to me is what a real warrior does. Now go have an Awesome week!!

🤔Depression seems to be going around….😔 Know that You matter❣ Know that it is ok to  admit that you are not ok and need help or people. THERE’ IS NO SHUH THING AS PERFECT ❣❣❣❣ We are humans, an all have issues, fults,  and needs. But also remember that you are AWESOME and needed!!!! Even if you don’t feel that way… It is the truth ❣❣❣

Here are some places you can reach out to if you don’tknowwho to talk to or don’twantto discussanythingaboutitwith people close to you..

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The mental health issues related to our lockdown and the pandemic are especially hard for people with depression. NAMI, The National Alliance on Mental Illness have a 24 hour helpline: 800-950-6264

〰️ https://www.nami.org/help

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NAMI offers support and education programs for families and individuals living with mental health conditions. NAMI recognizes that the key concepts of recovery, resiliency and support are essential to improving the wellness and quality of life of all persons affected by mental illness.

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〰️Lifeline
We can all help prevent suicide. The Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals.

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Remember that you are not alone and that you are loved!!!

💚 Amy Jane Sandberg 💚

Dad is no longer with us.


After many successful battles with miracles, and a full creative life. One of our heros this: amazing, inventive, hardworking man left us for a full restoration in Heaven to be with Jesus, God, and his loved ones already there. We will greatly miss him but are happy he’s no longer suffering the evils of this world. He was am amazingly strong, loving, talented, creative and smart man! 👤💔

Thank you for your support,, prayers and flowers!!! We highly appreciate you!!

There are no words to describe the loss we are feeling. It was very sudden and heartbreaking, especially after he survived so much and was doing amazing. 😭💔

Please keep us all in your prayers, thank you!! God bless you today and always!

ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2019


Hello All,

Christmas is my most favored Holiday of the year! This year and last year have been met with difficult times.  They weren’t the only  difficult Christmases we had. But we had a nice time. God is good!!

I often ask why the most sever issues in life come around during holidays? The answer I came up with is there is to much pressure  to make the Holidays perfect.  So please sit back, and enjoy the precious  time you get with your love ones,  if possible. and don’t fret the little mistakes.   The badly wrapped gifts, the gifts you forgot to mail,  the cooked meals. If you are alone then  do something for yourself, make the day memorable, and  enjoy it!!  Everyone-  Enjoy the little moments. 

Every day is a precious gift given to us. Don’t let let depression, loneliness, or  fear, keep you from finding the little joys in life. Dont wast anger and stress over things  that shouldn’t matter bit focus on what does matter. Make the most  out of what you are given and have and appreciate those and what you have in your life because you never know what tomorrow will bring.

The best gift you can give is Love and Support to one another. We are all waiting for someone or something. Don’t give up if it’s what your really want. Waiting is hard but while we wait we grow and learn new things about ourselves and our life around us. When the time comes and we achieve the goal at hand. It is better than ever imagine.

  God bless you today and Always!

ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯

I am here…


I have been on the go the past few months. I now have time to write. I think I’ll be getting a lot done too. Even with the crazy holiday season halfway over… I’ve already done much of the heavy work. I’ve been helping dad fix the driveway. The tree roots are raising the driveway up, and since they want to keep the trees we’ve been redoing certain areas and leveling the driveway out. First by removing the old driveway, using a aircompresser chizzle, then digging under the roots so they go down. then proceeding with re-taring the area. My main job is to dig up and shovel the old driveway ect, and replace the gravel with him…. Then together blowing out the craks and caulking the them up all along driveway to the road. Dad even did sone of the road as well… I’m always learning new things when I help dad. It’s not perfect, but it works! We got so much done, just before it snowed. We started before I left and finished after I came back.

Also while I was gone dad started redoing the back bathroom. He removed the old linoleum flooring and flooring and removeing the old toilet. I came back just in time to help him add the new stuff. Tho really he didn’t need my help. Dad is doing so much better then he was. I am truly impressed with his recovery. God is so good! We make a good team. We don’t always get along but we both work hard. We got it done just before company came!

Now I’m just gonna write while I relax in my pajamas. Just because I can! 😆 Yay- a writer’s life! I will get back to my youtube vblogs, my blog, and do some Facebook group this week I hope! I have a few more important tasks  first…

I will do my best to keep everyone updated so stay tuned! Don’t give up on your dreams or goals, any progress is still progress. So follow your dreams because you matter. Make sure you take time to breath and enjoy life too. My goal in life is tovspread joy and stop hate. I choose to be happy 😊 even when I don’t feel like it. Remember God supplies and miracles happen!I chose that book 📖 title for a reason!

Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

Giving Thanks on THANKSGIVING


Happy Thanksgiving!! 🦃
What are you – Thankful for?

😊 What are you grateful for? I have a full list below but first I am so grateful for Jesus, the important people in my life, and for science advances. I am so blessed to be here alive today! Twenty-two years ago, I went in for open heart surgery November 27th. I woke up with a completely rebuilt heart weeks later after complications. Truly Amazing! Happy Thanksgiving to you and your love ones. I love ya! Know you matter and you are loved. Someone is out there who is grateful for you.❤


I Went over the usual 10. There is just so much to be thankful for….
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I am thankful to God for:
1 Life 🙂
2 People 👥 and you 😆
3 A roof over my head🏘
4 Freedom and those that keep us safe ⚓🗽🚓🚒
5 Food to eat🍲 and Drinks drink☕
6 Means to Travel 🚇🚢✈🚀🛸🚙 7 Animals, Incects, amphibians and mamals🐾🐞🦎🐳                
8 Books to read📚📖🗞
9 Movies to watch📼📹🎭
10 Games to play. ⚽️🎾🏸🎲🃏🎮
11 The internet 💻 and mail.📮
12 Ways to make a living 💸and a difference.🌍

We kept it really simple this year. Communion along with a small Chinese food buffet for myself and my parents. Sometimes simple is nicer than a big fancy ordeal.

Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

The Forth and Last leg…Part 3


Hello Fellow friends,

Well, I am home now but I had a wonderful time with my man and his lovely family. I learned so much about him and all of them. We did so much with and without his family. My man and went on dates and walks. It was really nice. I got him some shirts he liked and some collector books he wanted. He got me a Totoro purse and wallet and some lotion and body spray too. It is not about the things, to me, the gifts are special because they are from the one I love! As for the rest of the family, they have to wait for Christmas…

When we spent time with his family as well as doing outings and everyday tasks.. We didn’t go to the beach or Disneyland but we did go to Medieval Times! I hadn’t been there since I was thirteen for my friend’s birthday in Florida. Here are some of the pictures I took. I hope they don’t mind me sharing them.

 

One weekend we watched movies and games. I even exchanged birthday and Christmas gifts as well with him. One of the weekends we had an outdoor bbq, watched a movie on a projector and did some rock painting, played soccer and other outdoor games.

 

I really enjoyed the one on one time with his mom too. We had a nice heart to heart talks. She even gave me a very sweet heartfelt gift from Starbucks as a surprise one night! It is special for so many reasons. It has all the state specialty emblems, I collect cups, it was a surprise, it showed she cared and was thinking of me.  I wish I could have done so much more for them! I wish I had got to know his dad more tho too.

 

I stayed for almost three weeks. When I had free time alone worked on writing my books in progress.

 

I can’t believe it is only a few days from Thanksgiving!! I look forward to coming back there often. It helps that the man I love has family in California. I totally felt at home with his family and in California. I was really nervous about staying with them but I think it went well. There was so much more I had wanted to do with them and for them. I miss them all so much. His family is my family as well. That’s how I feel in my heart. I never felt uncomfortable or out of place. I just wish I could bring them all back with me! It would sure make things easier for us all. California is one of the few states that I wouldn’t mind moving to. Though I am unable to take permanent residence there mainly because of my Medical specialists and health care requirements.

 

I can not believe I had to say goodbye. It really broke my heart. I cried so much. I keep telling myself it is not over tho and we will be together again soon. The most important thing is I have so many wonderful memories from this trip and all the trips I have been on this year. I can not express how much I appreciate everyone and everything.  To me making memories and spending time with the ones you care about is more important than anything else. Remember to take time for your loved ones and friends as well! I feel so refreshed and drained at the same time.

Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

 

The Forth and Last leg…Part 2


Hello Friends!!

Thus far even tho all the traveling I have done has been for my family and myself.  I am super excited to be here in California for me. The trip I had been planing for a very long time has finally happened. Thanks to the help of my sister, having me for the company! Being in California is like being in Florida. Only with no humidity and the presence of mountains.

 

The traffic isn’t to bad, but it is smoggy. Maybe away from the city, it won’t be so bad. I have to say we are again at another awesome hotel in Aanaheimnaheim. To bad, we won’t have time to go to Disney.  My sister and I are really sore tho. She hurt her back and I hurt my knee. I can tell she is ready to go home but has had a lot of fun.

Here is images of the sunset and sunrise from our room.

 

Beautiful right!  This is the smallest room we have stayed in the whole time of travel. But I am not complaining. Gain it is another nice hotel. This one has more of a home feel thought he entire place with a convenient novelty shop and cafe/coffee bar.  I got a ton of postcards from every place we went to. It is something I have been doing since I was little. A great cheap souvenir I collect postcards as I travel for mailing and myself. Usually a landmark or something about the place or state I am in.  Do you do something like that to? My baby sister collects spoons. I think I started that hobby when I as in hospitals. I would always and still do get something from the gift shop for me and my loved ones. Out of the two hobbies, I think collecting postcards is cheaper right?

The most awesome thing about being in CA is my man is here! I got to see him today. I was so nervous. Long-distance relationships are hard and we hand seen each other in a while. We go to his house I was so nervous I walked up to his door and walked away. But he saw me and opened the door before I walked away again.  His family was there. If I didn’t mention he is American born Mexican.  We did the meet and greets. Last time he came to my home and met my family. My sisters surprised us and came to visit. I love that he is close to his family like I am to mine.

We went to Rubble Castle 

 

And then we went to the movies to see Maleficent 2 after exploring the area a bit and discussing what to do.

Overall the whole experience and day was better then I expected… I was worried he wouldn’t still find me attractive or pleasing. He held my hand the entire movie and every chance he could he hugged me.  I couldn’t stop smiling if I had wanted to. My sister and him got along as well. Tho they had met before. I will see him again in a few days when I stay with him and his family!.😮

 

Keep me in your prayers?

Thanks! Love you all!

Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!😇

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

 

The Forth and Last leg…Part 1


Hello My Friends,

 

Now I am in California.

I’ve been traveling for about a month now. It has been quite the experience. I have had a much-needed breather and vacation. I am sad it is coming to an end.  I have finally made it to California tho!!! I was moved almost to tears when I first got to Azuza where my aunt once lived. I had planned to visit her there but wasn’t able to visit her in CA at all. I only was able to visit her after she had moved out of state.  It was a strange feeling finally visiting the town after many years of waiting. I felt closer to her, altho she is sadly no longer with us. Azuza was her home through some of her biggest life and career roles.

Azuza, CA

 

This past month has been about rediscovering myself and developing my faith. It has definitely been an answer to my prayers. I am pleased to say that I feel truly blessed and joyful again😊. I found joy and experiences in things I thought I couldn’t have for myself. I am truly grateful for this opportunity and endeavor of courage. I thank God for opening the doors and making ways for this to happen. Azuza was named after the Azuza Street revival in LA. There are numerous books on the revival.

 

 

Like the revival, I felt closer to God in California than I expected to. I had heard how bad that stare was faith wise the for many years…  But there was this cross that as erected up hight somewhere. No matter where we went we could see it. It gave us, speedily me such peace…  

It really moved me emotionally and reminded me of the movie Paul Hogan did.  Titled “Almost an Angel” I suggest you watch it. It is definitely one of the best movies I have seen! I wish they made more movies like this! 

 

 

 

Honesty I did not have as much time to write like I thought I would. However, I did work on my books when able. There was so much to do and take in! I mean look at this hotel!!   It not only had a covered pool it had a swimming river that went under and around spots.  I wish I had been able to swim… They also have gardens all over inside

 

I spent some time in Anaheim with my sister and her best friend. 

Then we went to long beach to visit it with her friend and her family. I learned and participated in brewing coffee according to her friend’s home country’s customs. It is something that she does with company and gatherings. She roasted unroasted green coffee beans in a small flat iron pan/bowl over a burner outside. (Something we do with popcorn seeds.) When they were brown she then cooled them with a fan on an on a plate. Proceeding to grind them in a mortar and pestle. Then brewing the coffee in a traditional clay pot with water and some seasoning, topped with a horsehair plug to keep it from over boiling. Finally, when done she poured each of us some with a little cream if and sugar if we wished in tiny cups. It took a long time to make but it was well worth it!  I wish I hadn’t have lost the images I took. Here is one I found as an example of the brewing jug and drinking cups. Kinda reminds me of a Saki set and jug, tea set, or Tai coffee set.   

If you are interested in learning more about different ways different cultures do coffee you should go here. https://www.culturallyours.com/2019/10/12/traditional-ethiopian-coffee-ceremony/

And Here:

https://www.thecoffeebrewers.com/cocurifrarwo.html?fbclid=IwAR3jdCQf_DSSaJ7RcNafsfRBsGRziKIx7eiUMe4LV3wyDQ2oQk-CPX7EBUs

She said she was sad she hadn’t any popcorn because she usually serves both together. It was a truly beautiful experience and she and her family have an amazing story. I loved each and every one of them ❤! 

 Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

 

 

TheThird Leg of the Trip part 2


We went to a different part of Arizona and on the first day at the hotel, we went for a walk to find a place to eat. And we came upon this Mexican restaurant. It was very modern and lots of metal art. The food was great and it had a nice very open and airy environment.

With a sense of humor to top it off.

On the last day in Arizona we decided to go for a walk and to go inside this beautiful church thst caught our attention… 🛐 St. Mary’s Basilica: The current church replaced an earlier adobe church which was built in 1881. Building work on the present church began in 1902 and was completed in 1914. The church was dedicated in 1915, and listed on the National Register of Historic Places as St. Mary’s Church in 1978. The oldest Roman Catholic parish church in the greater Phoenix, Arizona, area, it was the only parish in Phoenix until 1924 and is home to Arizona’s largest stained glass windows collection and a 26 rank pipe organ built by the Schantz Organ Company. Its the thrid oldest Catholic curch. ThecFirst is in St Augastingng Florida.

This structure literally took my breath away! Absolutely beautiful inside and out. Truly Spanish Colonial architecture of the Spanish colonization of the Americas. 〰️

I am not Catholic but I fully believe in The Father, The Son, and the Holy Spirit.! This church was beautiful and full of peace. Just because I am not Catholic does not mean I don’t love the Lord as much as they do or vice versa. We just walk different paths of faith. I am more of an evangelical Christian. If I have to label it. Tho I would prefer not to. We all have unique relationships with God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. What matters most is accepting Christ into your life and heart ❤. Not because you have to but because you want to. Jesus loves you and as you are. He is always with you and your bestfriend if wanted. He is my bestfriend for sure!

On the side of the church was a poster for their all saints day festival. We were a day too late to check that out but we saw all the decore form the event still up in the garden. Very interesting since I have never seen one before in person. Too bad I lost the pictures.

 

We were staying at this super classy highrise hotel with a restaurant on the top floor in Pheonix Arizona. It was by far the fanciest hotel I have ever been to with indoor concerts constantly going on as well.  On the very last night we made a reservation at that rotating restaurant The “Compass Arizona Grill”  it was quite the experience with very good food. We felt a little awkward tho since almost everyone there was a couple and there were definitely some proposals, anniversaries and birthdays going around… Along with a spectacular fireworks show. It was different then Seatle’s rotating restaurant. They have a bar or a restaurant you can go to.  We ordered crab cakes and the cheese fondue which came with fruit, bread, and cheese to dip.  They also severed some of the best home backed and variety of slices of bread I have ever tasted, very unique The ones I remember were: , pumpkin, regular roll, grain, and sweet-spicy pepper. bread YUMMY! Normally I can not do spicy peppers but I dipped in the cheese,  it was great and not too spicy for me

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Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

TheThird Leg of the Trip Part 1


Hello Y’all,

How are you today? I am doing well. I am on my third leg of the trip. I left Arizona a few days ago. It was awesome!  Our hotel was one of the best I have ever stayed at. It was huge, with a restaurant, a cafe, sports activities, several pools, gardens and in a fun area. I adored the whole place and I hope to go back one day!  We also went to a cactus garden and went to a butterfly garden and an aquarium with some insects and reptiles. It was my first time seeing a rainbow chameleon and poison dart frogs in person!  I Loved all of it. Just wish I could have got to the titanic museum too.

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Exciting right!  It is a bit nostalgic for me living out of a suitcase once again for the past two months. Just like I did when I first moved in 2011. As I have been doing so for almost two months with only a week and a half at home in-between. I have been making sure to work on some of my books during my downtime… I’ve been mainly switching between two main books. When I get stuck on one I work on the other. Apparently, I am not the only writer who does this. I see the challenge of re-writing what I lost as part of a character challenge for myself. I am very determined to get some books done as soon as I possibly can. 🤔 I was gonna participate in NaNo. Obviously, I can’t this year. Funny last NaNoWriMo I was traveling as well… Maybe next year I can join in NaNo. Here is the link if you are interested in participating, or curious about what it is. Good luck, break a pen! https://www.nanowrimo.org/ 

Why am I traveling you ask? Why not? I love to travel and enjoying time with people. Life keeps everyone very busy but is important to enjoy life. If you are lucky enough to get a chance to spend time with people, especially those you care about you shouldn’t pass that up. Most of the best Christmas movies are about busy people not taking time to enjoy life and time with their loved ones. The main Characters then remember what was most important to them. Then a Christmas miracle happens or Santa gets involved and things get better. If you were in a Christmas movie what would the storyline be? To answer the question seriously as to why am I traveling is mainly because I had the chance to help my sister😀 and to go on the trip I had planned for in July. 🥰 I want to make the most of life and not pass up any opportunities! I do not want to have regrets in my life.

I was planning on doing some live videos along the way, but honestly, I get shy on camera and stumble over my words. So like the picture says I write better then I talk. I am grateful that I have met some awesome people! I love how everyone is unique and awesome in their own way.😄 Along with having new experiencing and seeing new places as well! I met a pretty famous author without knowing it until now. That was pretty neat. As I say famous people are just normal people too.

This is where I enjoyed several days outside listing to birds and getting inspired.

 

 

 

Grackle birds make the most unique beautiful sounds. I really enjoyed spending my mornings and afternoons with them. We have black ones here but now one believed me. I will try and take a picture of one and post it later. They are my second favorite bird besides vultures.

Grackles are quite the efficient foragers, and will even steal food from less savvy birds. They are omnivores and will eat anything from bugs to minnows to different types of berries and seeds. Of course, these birds aren’t snobby at all and will snatch human food at a moment’s notice. Common Grackles are blackbirds that look like they’ve been slightly stretched. They’re taller and longer tailed than a typical blackbird, with a longer, more tapered bill and glossy-iridescent bodies. Grackles walk around lawns and fields on their long legs or gather in noisy groups high in trees, typically evergreens.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quiscalus

 Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

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