Monthly Archives: January 2011
My Life as a Rurouni
Hello Every One,
If your not familiar with the term Rurouni, it means wanderer. It is a more romantic term then nomad. Which is what I am right now, traveling from one place to the next for weeks at a time. I don’t mind, it is an adventure! I have with me my cloths, my Bible, the books I am writing, my laptop, and some new shoes. 🙂 I don’t need more then that, however it would be nice to have some other personal belongings, so I could at least start to feel conformable. My pastor once said Comfort can be bad, which is true when your “settled into something” you sometimes don’t want to venture out of that comfort. I see my time now as a new adventure with lots of new leaning experiences, new friends, and much inspiration… God is so good…
So far I’ve been to two homes… I just got back to my “Main Temporary” place of residence. There is no way I will live in this house permanently. The house is great but the neighborhood is not even close to good. I am happy to have a roof over my head and a wonderful family that is so willing to let me stay here while I work on getting my books done and sorting out who I want to be and where I want to go with my life. That is a never ending battle with everyone I think, until they have that “deciding moment” and even after. We are but humans and it is hard to keep on track all the time. Unless you have amazing self discipline. Something I am working on.
My whole family is taking Major leap of faith moving out here, and though it has been hard on them / us. I see God opening doors for us all over. Even with the stress of money and separation, God is making a way where there seems to be no way.
Back to my books, I just started unpacking, I have my recent work hand written, and it will take days to type up all the pages I have written. But I am looking forward to getting back to them and I hope I’ll have the time stating Tuesday. One thing I will tell you I love Washington! I have only seen a little of it where I am residing is not good. However there are many beautiful places in this state! I especially love the West Coast. Oregon the other place I go to a lot is Even more Breathtaking!! Well from what I saw so far. Where my mother lives, and the drive there is wonderful! I will most likely live there in the future, near here unless I find a good man and get settled with him before I get settled near family. It is ALL IN GOD’S HANDS! And I trust him because he has shown me miracle after miracle, and has come through for me even when I could see no way.
I miss you all my dear friends, family that I left, and my Church! God Bless you all! Be safe!
1 Week Left!
Hello My Friends,
Thank you for being patient with me. I am moving in one week!! I will be back online and active after I get up there,I have a lot I want to write about but I am limited on time and net. I have leaned new ways to think and control my emotions, I have dealt with stress in new levels.. But I have come out on top… Well I am coming out a winner in this Battle. It is not over yet, But I am still fighting! Seven days to go! I am very excited..
I am clearing out my closet, my stuff, and giving away lots of stuff I can’t take with me. Which makes me happy that I can share with others. I have deepened relationships, regained new ones, and lost a few over the move. But God has plans for me and I have so much I want to write about.
I’ve been running errands and seeing the local ares and I have been shocked at a;; the businesses and restaurants I have never been to. I am a little sad I won’t get to try most of them but I at least have leaned to open my eyes more and to take closer look at things and people thanks to this experience..I have been looking at this as a growth experience… We all go through seasons in life. Some we like and some we don’t but we always have room to grow and learn new things. One thing I leaned was I have become too self conscious of myself… I feel like at times the more I am myself the more people push me away… I am not happy about that. A dear friend of mind told me “Amy it does not matter who likes you, as long as you like yourself and be yourself. Eventually you’ll find people who will accept you as you.” It is some thing I didn’t realize I was struggling with till he said that. Now that I am aware of it I am working harder on being me…
I have been to selfish lately too… I am used to taking care of others because I like to, but I’ve felt burnt out lately and I stopped helping everyone to do my own things. My things are important too but what I did before is also needed. I should not have just stopped. And the guilt of stopping got to me and made me a real jerk. I am sorry…. Since I realized that I have been happier… Helping others is good, but before you burn out make sure you have time for your stuff too. Balance, though hard at times is the key..
I had more to say but I can not organize my thoughts as well as I would like currently, Though I am very inspired to write!! Love ya!