Guess what, it’s my birthday. Yes, April First is my birthday. I wasn’t supposed to live but I did. Another year has flown by. I am truly grateful to be alive. Life has not always been easy. Honestly, life has been quite a struggle at some points. There’s been times where there seemed to be nothing but darkness. Times when I’ve had to literally and figuratively crawl to move forward.
Yet there’s been times of true miracles and blessings. I’ve been miraculously healed of being brain dead, and from four stokes. I have had some truly amazing and wonderful experiences. Such as: working with celebrities, going to college, hosting events, traveling – exploring new places, and worked passionately with ministries. I have dealt with losses and even depression at times. Especially the past few years. God has also given me loving family, man, and friends. I have always tried my best and trusted God with the rest. Especially when it comes to major life changes. We have to be careful not to miss those moments of God’s guidance, grace, and direction. Sometimes I wonder if I have missed a few. I know I m where I am supposed to be at the moment. Yet worrying about the past changes nothing. You have to focus on the future and enjoy the day you have. Because each new day is a precious gift!
I have really had a full life so far. I’ve been told that I have probably only lived half of my lifetime thus far…
Truly the future is so unpredictable. You can plan all you want but life has a way of throwing you curve balls. Be it in baseball or bowling, they happen. That is why I am truly grateful for God’s amazing love, for giving us Jesus Christ and the HolySpirit. My best friends. Without which I know that I couldn’t make it on my own. I understand that life isn’t perfect. It is dang hard at times! However, God’s timing and love are perfect. Tho at times it is very hard waiting for the answers we need / want. Sometimes things happened that hurt. But God is Love and God is good. My life is living proof of that.
1 John 4:7-10 KJV
Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God. He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love. In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son (Jesus) to be the propitiation for our sins.
Psalm 100:5 KJV “For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.”
It would be so easy to feel sorry for myself. Yet I choose to live with optimism. When you let fear, doubt, anger, resentment, and unforgiveness in. They can and will destroy your joy, hope, faith, love peace and health. The Bible talks strongly about guarding your heart. King Solomon said it best: “Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life” (Proverbs 4:23) With that said… It is important that you treasure the people who are in your life more than things and temporary trials. Those come and go but having people to share your life with is the best gift of all.
I ask you as your birthday gift to me tell someone in your life how much they matter to you. I feel there is too much anger, and resentment is going on in this world. We each have a choice to make a difference even if it’s only in one person’s life. Your effort counts. You matter and you will probably never know how much you truly matter, yet you are treasured and loved so much; By God and others! Trust me I know there are people out there who value you even if they do not show it. With that said……
!!!Thank you Lord for my life!!!
💕 I really appreciate you all. Your encouragement means a lot! God Bless You Today and Always! 💕
ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane Sandberg ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
Hello all Good Day!
How are you doing? Especially with all the chaos and stresses that are going on with the crazy world right now. I know this year is extra rough for our family. Especially for mom and I. Not only did we loose my dad in April, after he survived so many trials so suddenly… We also lost some pets. My one of my parents twin cats, mainly my dad’s ran away, or or was abducted Early June… We’re still hoping she will come back. Then my Great Dane and best friend passed away less then a month ago. Talk about rough… I understand that some people may have it worse but this is extremely painful 💔 😢.
That’s not all of what’s been going on. I’m not going to mention the little things. Our whole family is struggling with so much right now… Mom’s been really strong. My parent’s are my real life heros for a reason. We were both in a deep depression. We are doing better tho. Taking it one day at a time. This depression was the 2nd worst I’ve been through. The thing about depression is you seem ok at some points then you get knocked down and out of nowhere. Its like a panic attack or anxiety attack without having the full symptoms. You feel numb, trapped, like a shell of a person, if even a person. Maybe a you are robot… I told my man. It’s like I have theses support walls up, but inside theres nothing but broken rubble. For the past several years I’ve been taking care and supporting my dad. We were very close and were together most of the day until he got better. Then he started doing his own stuff but it didn’t last long. He suddenly had cancer and ended up leaving us because of heart failure. Anyways…
It sounds funny but Frozen 2 actually helped us, especially my mom. Mainly Ana’s song “The Next Right Thing”
“The Next Right Thing” lyrics:
I’ve seen dark before, but not like this
This is cold, this is empty, this is numb
The life I knew is over, the lights are out
Hello, darkness, I’m ready to succumb
I follow you around, I always have
But you’ve gone to a place I cannot find
This grief has a gravity, it pulls me down
But a tiny voice whispers in my mind
You are lost, hope is gone
But you must go on
And do the next right thing
Can there be a day beyond this night?
I don’t know anymore what is true
I can’t find my direction, I’m all alone
The only star that guided me was you
How to rise from the floor?
But it’s not you I’m rising for
Just do the next right thing
Take a step, step again
It is all that I can to do
The next right thing
I won’t look too far ahead
It’s too much for me to take
But break it down to this next breath, this next step
This next choice is one that I can make
So I’ll walk through this night
Stumbling blindly toward the light
And do the next right thing
And, with it done, what comes then?
When it’s clear that everything will never be the same again
Then I’ll make the choice to hear that voice
And do the next right thing
Songwriters: Kristen Anderson-Lopez / Robert Lopez
The Next Right Thing lyrics © Walt Disney Music Company
Neither of us could have gone through this alone. Not without the help from God / Jesus / The Holy Spirit, our loved ones and our friends. We still gave a long way to go but we are all pressing forward one step at a time with lots of love and prayers.
I am starting to remember who I was and who I am subosoed to be. I want to hold on to that.
Remember matter what your doing this week, working or playing – Smile. It is a a choice we make. To let things get to us or to smile and move forward. knowing you can and will survive – whatever your going through: Losses, Rude people, things keep going wrong, etc. Whatever it is, know tomorrow is a new day. Look for the good in the bad, smile and show the world you won’t let anyone but you control how you feel. That to me is what a real warrior does. Now go have an Awesome week!!
🤔Depression seems to be going around….😔 Know that You matter❣ Know that it is ok to admit that you are not ok and need help or people. THERE’ IS NO SHUH THING AS PERFECT ❣❣❣❣ We are humans, an all have issues, fults, and needs. But also remember that you are AWESOME and needed!!!! Even if you don’t feel that way… It is the truth ❣❣❣
Here are some places you can reach out to if you don’t know who to talk to or don’t want to discuss anything about it with people close to you..
The mental health issues related to our lockdown and the pandemic are especially hard for people with depression. NAMI, The National Alliance on Mental Illness have a 24 hour helpline: 800-950-6264
NAMI offers support and education programs for families and individuals living with mental health conditions. NAMI recognizes that the key concepts of recovery, resiliency and support are essential to improving the wellness and quality of life of all persons affected by mental illness.
We can all help prevent suicide. The Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals.
Remember that you are not alone and that you are loved!!!
💚 Amy Jane Sandberg 💚
In reflection…I has been a good and a bad year…. The past moths alone have been horrid….But the moths before were awesome! In October I broke my foot… October 18th…. It is still in a boot…
>.< I am to see a specialist because its healing so slowly… My Dr. was concerned I may need to have a pin put in it temporarily… Or I may end up with an extra joint in my foot he said… (I’m praying for complet healing to maifest) It has really sucked not being able to drive… And I miss my local friends… On top of that a few of our pets have passed away… (because of cancer, brain, and other issues) Then My aunt Christine Passed away too… Right before Christmas… ( believe they are all in Heaven healed and whole and I’ll see my pets and aunt again) I am not the only one going though issues… Some of my friends and family are too… And it breaks my heart…
But- The whole family got to be together for the first Christmas in 5 years! What a blessing! As for a gift to my parents… My sister Amanda and her Husband Kevin gave my parents sibling kittens… They are beautiful and they needed a good home… My paper back is being sold via Barns and Noble which is so exciting and scary too!
It is so easy to get mad at God for allowing the hurt in our lives… It has really piled up… But God has done so many good things too… Hes healed me more time then I could count, he take care of our needs when we lack… Hes brought my whole family into on state once more, and He’s blessing my baby Sister Amelia with a little Girl in February…The blessings out number the hardships… But when you are in the middle of a storm all you can see or feel is the hurt and pain…. I love Psalms 103, and Psalms 97. They are such amazzing chapters all about what God can and will do for you… Like Romans 8, Ephesians 6, Daniel 3, and Hebrews 11. They are all about what God can and will do for you if you have faith, if you obey Him and if you will listen… It is not really that hard… Right??? Wrong… Feeling bad…. Is a trap once you are feeling bad… It is so hard to find happiness again.. You have to choose to be happy, to allow yourself to be happy. You have to fight the lies of you being worthless and unimportant, that things will only get worse… You have to look for the good… Sounds familiar… In the past five years I have gone though this battle every year at some point. I think we all go though it… Different situation same type of battle… We need to Praise Him in the Storm and train our minds to be victors not victims… Philippians 4:4 Rejoice int he Lord always and again I say Rejoice.!!!
God bless you today and always! Choose to be happy to Have Faith and to Trust God to bring good out of Every Bad Situation!!!! Because He will!The devil comes only to steal from you, to kill you, and to destroy you; but Jesus came to Brig you Life and to Bring it Abundantly! ~John 10:10
This year has been hard for me, yet I’ve been blessed! So much has happened and changed since last Christmas. This year there seems to be something missing. I can’t put my finger on what it is. There is for sure a cloud of depression hanging over people too. But I am staying thankful. I am making a effort to spread cheer and love. Along with the reason for the season. Keep in mind Christmas only comes once a year. But it lives in my heart year round. Choose not to let the little things get to you. I know this time of year brings back bad and good memories for all. I want to encourage you to focus on the good. Have regrets? Everyone does. But… Every day is a new day bringing new chances and choices. Don’t wait for the new year resolution to change. Do it now… So you can be happy sooner. ♥ I know I make it sound so easy. But I know that it is not. I truly believe that if you look you can find reasons to be happy. Complain less and smile more… Every thing worth doing – takes effort! Learn to appreciate each opportunity to make a choice as they arrive.
This year again I didn’t finish the main books I’m working on. (Why work on more than one at a time? = to keep the writer block away.) I did pubish a smalk e-BOOK. And I am continuing to make progress on my main books almost daily. I am working on them more determined then ever now. So keep checking back with me and please don’t hesitate to ask me about them. ♥
~ Amy Jane♡