Hello, it has been a while… Welcome back!!
First of all I want to say that I am sorry for not posting more. Even tho writing gives me joy and fulfillment, I just haven’t had the desire for it as of late. I’ve been dealing with a lot of emotions and life changes. My heart is still healing from the losses this year. I won’t go into them at this time, I will in the future. I did not want my work to be brought down to the level I was on. It is not is place I wish anyone to be in. Not only that but there is real chaos going on in our country and world.
Usually I do a reflection of the year and all things good for Christmas. Then around New Year’s I discuss all that I want to see and accomplish. I had full intention of doing just that. Evey time I tried, I just couldn’t put my thoughts and feelings into words. Honestly, my heart just wasn’t in it. I did start and do still have some blog drafts.
However, they are not really life related. Mostly all just game talk. I’m sure those will be fun. I’ll get around to posting them probably in Febuarry. I again I just haven’t had the desire to write. Shoker I know!! Here’s why…
God willing. I say that very seriously. So much is going on right now the last thing on my mind has been sitting at a computer. Every day is so important and every person is a gift. I am still fighting my own sadness. Yet also saddened by all the hate and division going on right now all around the world.
It isn’t right nor healthy… I was raised that our words and our actions matter… That we have to be productive, and responsible. We have to be people of our word, loyal, honest, and examples of Jesus’s love. Why? Because it is right – Because it makes a difference and Because it is what would Horner God. He sent Jesus His so for us to be blessed out of love. (John3:16) We are to treat others how we wish to be treated. You say you may not care… But I thinks you do… No-one likes being neglected and treated poorly.
You nay not feel like you deserve love, nor feel loved. However you are loved and no one does. That’s why Jesus did what he did for us!!!
Now back to tbe chaos…. I still have a strong faith in God. Despite all the drama, and conflicts going around. It is so much more then a game of he said she said. People are attacking people, friends turning aginst one another over various reasons big and small. An example being: difference of opinion. I don’t want nor approve of violence or hate crimes.
People are not communicating well, even on the same sides. Things are being taken out of content and some are being cut off and silenced. For what? I am truly scared of the future at hand. We all have a choices to make…
I am not happy about all the forced silences going on. It just doesn’t feel right. No matter what side your on. Violence and muteing has never been a good thing in my opinion. I won’t go further into that. I am glad I can freely share my words with you all still. I love our country and I’m very concerned about the future of it. We all have choices to make.
All I can do is be myself, stay positive, stay strong and keep praying. I hope we find some positive chances soon. Remember that you matter. You may not feel like you do, but I’m telling you that you are a treasure. You may not see it but the ones around you do. Even if they don’t tell you. I am telling you right now-
I encourage you to seek reasons to smile. Even if the reasons are small. Remind those you care about how much they matter to you as well. Try not to stay angry or hurt others on purpose. Treat others how you wish to be treated. Every day you wake up is gift. It may not be easy but we have to move forward. We do that one step at a time. We may not be happy and hardships are sure to come. But you can move forward if you choose to. It is harder to let life pass you by and have regrets Dont live a life of regret and anger.
We have to encourage eachother and set good examples of Christ Jesus’s love. Be sure sisters and brothers in Christ we are being watched and judged. We are humans but we are called to spread the gospel and we can only do so by developing a personal reallationship, truly knowing Jesus as our friend and reading God’s word the Bible.
Thank you for stopping by and giving me a moment if your time to share my thoughts and feelings with you. I am truly grateful for you.
ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane Sandberg ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
Hello all Good Day!
How are you doing? Especially with all the chaos and stresses that are going on with the crazy world right now. I know this year is extra rough for our family. Especially for mom and I. Not only did we loose my dad in April, after he survived so many trials so suddenly… We also lost some pets. My one of my parents twin cats, mainly my dad’s ran away, or or was abducted Early June… We’re still hoping she will come back. Then my Great Dane and best friend passed away less then a month ago. Talk about rough… I understand that some people may have it worse but this is extremely painful 💔 😢.
That’s not all of what’s been going on. I’m not going to mention the little things. Our whole family is struggling with so much right now… Mom’s been really strong. My parent’s are my real life heros for a reason. We were both in a deep depression. We are doing better tho. Taking it one day at a time. This depression was the 2nd worst I’ve been through. The thing about depression is you seem ok at some points then you get knocked down and out of nowhere. Its like a panic attack or anxiety attack without having the full symptoms. You feel numb, trapped, like a shell of a person, if even a person. Maybe a you are robot… I told my man. It’s like I have theses support walls up, but inside theres nothing but broken rubble. For the past several years I’ve been taking care and supporting my dad. We were very close and were together most of the day until he got better. Then he started doing his own stuff but it didn’t last long. He suddenly had cancer and ended up leaving us because of heart failure. Anyways…
It sounds funny but Frozen 2 actually helped us, especially my mom. Mainly Ana’s song “The Next Right Thing”
“The Next Right Thing” lyrics:
I’ve seen dark before, but not like this
This is cold, this is empty, this is numb
The life I knew is over, the lights are out
Hello, darkness, I’m ready to succumb
I follow you around, I always have
But you’ve gone to a place I cannot find
This grief has a gravity, it pulls me down
But a tiny voice whispers in my mind
You are lost, hope is gone
But you must go on
And do the next right thing
Can there be a day beyond this night?
I don’t know anymore what is true
I can’t find my direction, I’m all alone
The only star that guided me was you
How to rise from the floor?
But it’s not you I’m rising for
Just do the next right thing
Take a step, step again
It is all that I can to do
The next right thing
I won’t look too far ahead
It’s too much for me to take
But break it down to this next breath, this next step
This next choice is one that I can make
So I’ll walk through this night
Stumbling blindly toward the light
And do the next right thing
And, with it done, what comes then?
When it’s clear that everything will never be the same again
Then I’ll make the choice to hear that voice
And do the next right thing
Songwriters: Kristen Anderson-Lopez / Robert Lopez
The Next Right Thing lyrics © Walt Disney Music Company
Neither of us could have gone through this alone. Not without the help from God / Jesus / The Holy Spirit, our loved ones and our friends. We still gave a long way to go but we are all pressing forward one step at a time with lots of love and prayers.
I am starting to remember who I was and who I am subosoed to be. I want to hold on to that.
Remember matter what your doing this week, working or playing – Smile. It is a a choice we make. To let things get to us or to smile and move forward. knowing you can and will survive – whatever your going through: Losses, Rude people, things keep going wrong, etc. Whatever it is, know tomorrow is a new day. Look for the good in the bad, smile and show the world you won’t let anyone but you control how you feel. That to me is what a real warrior does. Now go have an Awesome week!!
🤔Depression seems to be going around….😔 Know that You matter❣ Know that it is ok to admit that you are not ok and need help or people. THERE’ IS NO SHUH THING AS PERFECT ❣❣❣❣ We are humans, an all have issues, fults, and needs. But also remember that you are AWESOME and needed!!!! Even if you don’t feel that way… It is the truth ❣❣❣
Here are some places you can reach out to if you don’t know who to talk to or don’t want to discuss anything about it with people close to you..
The mental health issues related to our lockdown and the pandemic are especially hard for people with depression. NAMI, The National Alliance on Mental Illness have a 24 hour helpline: 800-950-6264
NAMI offers support and education programs for families and individuals living with mental health conditions. NAMI recognizes that the key concepts of recovery, resiliency and support are essential to improving the wellness and quality of life of all persons affected by mental illness.
We can all help prevent suicide. The Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals.
Remember that you are not alone and that you are loved!!!
💚 Amy Jane Sandberg 💚
Yep. I caved and bought Animal Crossing New Horizons. Honestly it was a game I wanted. I really liked the game cube one and haven’t played animal crossing since college years ago.
Instead – I was on Maple Story, The Sims 4, Wartunes and other games like those with local and long distance friends. I didn’t plan to buy Animals Crossing so soon. But my niece and nephew came to visit and I thought it would be a good way to keep them occupied. Sadly it didn’t finish downloading until the very last day they were here. Booo…. 😭 Darn Slow 🐌 network 😑.! At last we got to play together for the day.
And again when I went to visit them. ♥️
After watching me play Dad decided to try because he was interested in the fishing aspect 🎣 😄. Okay I cohereseded him a bit.
One of my sisters also decided to make a house on my Island. She wanted to try the game before buying it. That eventually got my mom interested in trying the game as well.
My island development and game play was very slow due to lack of experience. ➕ I stopped playing for a while when dad passed away suddenly at the end of April due to heart failure. 💔
I couldn’t say it any better Freckles…. 💔💔
My mom lost interest in the game. I however found that playing this game and my dad’s character oddly gave me peace. Oddly it really helped me grieve, mourn, and gave me some form of closure. Strange as it may be. Playing my dad’s character helps me feel close to him even though he is no longer here.
My island has a long way to go. I am spending lots of extra time crafting and swimming mainly staying in the month of April. I sometimes wonder, if I am the only one who has done this? Meaning -Played a family members in a game character or game who is no longer with you?
It still feels unrealistic that he’s gone…. 😅🙁💔 I wonder if I will ever fully over it? Probably not until I see him again in Heaven.
Honestly ACNH game seems really slow to start the first few weeks on the island. Espessially if you do not know what you are doing. There are tutorials extra. I but I really haven’t looked into any of that. I was eager to figure things out on my own. But because of that – My island is a mess and still in development… You can say I am just winging it. I was in April for almost 3 moths in game… Now I am back in June…. I play may way. I don’t think lingering behind counts as cheating….
If I could do it over. I think I would have done more nook island hoping to choose who moves in. I would also have liked to have saved up bells before splurging on clothes and furniture. I also wouldn’t have time jumped my first month away. Which was an accident… It upgraded my store from small to large… I however lost the joy of being smaller-sized longer. Yes, I could start over, but I’d lose everything I worked so hard on, including all my dad’s achievements. So not gonna happen… Maybe I’ll write my own advice post one of these days. The important stuff that you need to know. A lot of tutorials sadly don’t get cover ¹the things people ask me the most about in just one place. And often they are wrong or ever-changing info. I discovered Zack from Switch Force and Abdullah from Abdullah Nation who are on youtube.com They have been very helpful, entertaining, and encouraging.
My mom, sister and nephew eventually got their own games and Islands. I am really enjoying Animal Crossing New Horizons. With them – my awesome family -teammates and my wonderful friends help. I think being able to do things together and visit each other is what makes this game so special! Again I adore the Sims games but you can’t really interact with people in real-time with that game.
Because of my Family and friends I feel I’ve had a great start with growing my Island. While having a good time making and making many great memories!!! Here’s more pictures!
Here are some more pictures. 😞 Sorry the pictures are not completely in order. I hope you can be understanding.
I became so invested in “ACNH” I spent a good amount of money a variety of Amiibos from villers to npcs for me and my family… I have yet to use any. But I do intend to make use of them.
Lastly, I want to show off my favorite villager. Anchovy. He is lazy easy-going, positive, and friendly. He is a cute brown bird. Just what I need in a friend right now. He was one of the first five had moved in. One of the three houses you have to build. Via Tom Nook’s instruction. He was the first of the three who moved in. I just love the ranch-style, dirt floor home for him. It truly fits his personality, especially with his love of bugs. I feel it is much better than the casino one they have for him say if he moved in not as your first five. That’s what the nookpoedia says his house would be at least for New Horizons.
Do you have any favorite Villaers? Any that give you a smile and enjoy?
When I’m free I visit mom and we game together ❤. Yes, you guessed it with our with Great Danes always by our sides. My silly Lilly.
I am sorry this post is so rough. I haven’t had much luck with writing lately. Anyways, I think I gave more than enough info for one post. I have more videos and images of ACNH on my Facebook gaming page. ONLYFOTHEGAMESAMJANE – but I have them marked as friends only for now. So I thought I would share my favorites with you here. Sadly I haven’t taken many good pictures yet 😕. I still hope you enjoyed this post tho.
Goodnight and God bless you today and always!!
ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane Sandberg ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯
I wish you, no matter where you are or, who you are with A wonderful Christmas!! And A Blessed New Year!!!
I was not sure where to start, I kept getting sidetracked with life. I didn’t have time to make an image for you……
Here I go…
This is my favored time of year for many reasons Such as: The weather and the fact that I love the holiday season. Thanksgiving through New Year’s… All because of: the giving, sharing, thankfulness, anticipation of new, beginnings, joy, and so much more in the air. I love the lights, the trees, the food, and most of all the family you generally get to spend time with. Family, close friends and relatives.. (Usually)
Sadly though, this time of year brings stress, anger, and loneliness to a lot of people. This is the first year in a a couple of years I have not felt so lost in emotions…. We all worry about if we have enough time to do what we want to do, do we have enough money, will our friends and families enjoy our efforts. And then there are those of us who do not have the pleasure of having people in our lives to share this time with and it brings out anger, resentment, and deepens the loneliness and pain. I know this all too well over the past few years for sure. They have been hard… I barely celebrated. But there is something really special. No matter what every Christmas Eve.. I get filled with this amazing peace and my heart fills with unexplainable thankfulness and all. I find myself staring at the Christmas tree and or lights for hours not thinking anything just in awe… It all started when I awoke from the coma in 1997 Just 2 days before Christmas… Maybe because of the many close encounters with death I am more sensitive to the holidays… This year it wasn’t my closeness with death that was faced. I lost my oldest brother to cancer…. But then in November my youngest sister Got married…. Such a wide variety of emotions…. I know for many this was a very hard year, but many of us have been blessed despite the troubles… Such as my parents finding a house after almost 4 years of searching… It never amazes me what God can do….. I know next year I and many others, feel it will be a year of closure and togetherness.. I am looking forward to that tho I feel the past few years have gone by way to fast… I hope to share some good things with you in the future tho. Like some books in the next year!!!
I wish you, no matter where you are or, who you are with A wonderful Christmas!! It is not about the Receiving, it’s about the joy of togetherness, the Giving of love and companionship… So many I know have been blessed with wonderful mates while others are still alone.. Our time will come singles! God’s timing is perfect and He or she will be exactly what we need… And more then we could ever want!!
This was supposed to be a sweet note of love, sorry I went on… I pray if you don’t know Jesus yet you take the opportunity to ask into your heart tonight… Don’t waste time waiting for the right moment or to be perfect. He loves you as you are and there is no better timing then now… Having a relationship with Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit is the best Gift I could share with anyone… God after all gave the best Gift Jesus… And that is what Christmas is all About… Celebrating his Birth, His life, and His Death so that we may be free of the chains of sin and be blessed with Eternal life!!! It’s easy just read this out loud.
“Dear Heavenly Father, I acknowledge I need you. (You do need Him) I welcome you Jesus into my heart, for you are the way and the truth and the light. (John 14:6) Please forgive me of my sins and be a part of my life form now on.. Thank you Amen” Now go tell someone what you did.
The devil comes to steal form you, to Kill you, and to Destroy you, but I come to bring you life and to bring it Abundantly.
You are Loved,
ི♥ྀ Amy Jane ི♥ྀ
I’m back home and off to work.
My sisters wedding was beautiful. I was very happy to have spent time with all the family. It was a small but wonderful wedding, one of the best I have been to! Plus it was a mini family reunion! She is so blessed so many people wanted to be there for her joyous day. The only thing missing were my brothers and aunt Christine. I still fel sad that Shane is now in heaven. But I know he is in a better place and I will see him again one day. I just hope he was able to look down and see her day.. Funny, I always though that line was a little cheesy, never thought it was possible. I mean I know they are always wit us.. Bit to say that myself… I feel the dept of those words… Pardon me while I go cry…
My Sister Amelia and I have come a long way in our relationship. I realized we both were a bit envious of each-other.. Silly how envy can tear people apart. I am so happy for her, beyond words. I think both my sisters are blessed with wonderful husbands! Now it’s my turn.. (I know, when the time I right I will have mine. I am not in a hurry!) My nephew was a doll!! I adore him… I miss him tons. I can’t wait till I see them next time!
I’m sorry I meant to keep this short. Last thing….
My files are a mess on the computer and in hard copies, andmy net is limited…. Thank God I have my computer back tho. I can’t wait to finish some of these books… I am so grateful that have the time and help when I need it. I have a bad habit of jumping in headfirst and catching up latter… Now her I am back to work and regretting my quick filing system. I have a lot of organizing, updating, formatting rearranging and lots of writing to do. Where is that personal assistant I’ve been meaning to find… lol… I would love to have an office to go to: with a huge desk, multiple display monitors, several computers, and a staff to help me. Maybe one day? Till then I have a apt, with a small office, 2 filing cabinets full of research and hard copies print0uts of my work, a Great Dane who is leaning when to settle down while I work… Mom said shes never met a Great Dane so hyper… God knew what I needed tho, I would be so bored and lonely with out her. I have a demanding but wonderful neighbors. I love the new place now, tho I have only been actually home here 1 moth, its like living in a yearlong vacation spot out of a book I’d read… So many wonderful wildlife, and I’m up high, so I have great views all around me… Thank you so much for sticking with me and continuing to support me with encouragement and pushing me to work… I have so many books in progress, I’ve narrowed it down to just 3 for now till they are finished…. God bless you all, and I pray you have favor in all you do!
ღ♥ღ Amy Jane Sandberg ღ♥ღ
Hello My Dear Friends,
I am so sorry it has been a while almost three months since I have posted any news or really worked on my books. You see.. My family and I have been hit with a lot of things. Finances; Vehicle troubles; My baby sister’s new baby; Hose work, errands, re- doing my room (yes – after a year it is still a work in progress); Romance problems; The Swine Flu; Misunderstanding with a few Friends, and of course some Deaths: A Friend, My Grandpa, and then Our dog.
*sigh* I have been meaning to write I started a few journals but I didn’t know what to say and to be honest I really didn’t want to write.. I was doubting my dreams. Thinking about all the things I have wanted to do and does’t seem to be happening. I am 28 single for three years, no children.. I have 4 cats, 1 bird, my and my 2007 nitro… I watch my nephew five days a week, and pet and house sit when I can.
I have been so wrapped up in not having what I really want (A Husband, yes I like some one. I need to get the courage to tell him.) And not doing anything worth wile in a while I forgot all I need to do is get off my ass and do it. So the past three months I have been doing just hat. Getting things done at my Church, helping my family more, and my friends and doing every thing but writing and my room..
The good news: We are getting a new puppy as soon as he is old enough next month!! Our Life group is going well, I have a steady flow of money again, I am working out again, I am keeping up with the chores, I have new determination, and most of all – Conner is taking 1 long nap a day where I get time to write now! Woot!! Praise God!
So this month coming I promise to write more and to get my ass in gear and finish my room, well at least get it as close as I can to an office till I can afford new tile and paint.. I got a new door this weekend!! Thats a start!!!
I am still hoping I can find an artist to turn my books into comics as I write them, of course I would share the royalties, but no one has had the time because most the authors I like have a busy life right now as well.. I think I will hold a contest in a month or two as I get more of my main books done..
Again I am sorry I have been away, though I don’t really think I have any serious fans yet… If you read this, thank you!
God bless you today and always!
~Amy Jane ~Anjiu SutoMu
Just a quick update. I am out of town. My grandpa was extremly ill, and passed away Sunday. I came to Washington State form Florida. To say good bye, and stay for a family gathering.
I brought my laptop and books, because I thought I would have lots of time to write. But no time has come up where I am in my right mind. So I am sorry for the delays but no new chapters for awhile. Maybe some time this week I will get some work done. I feel like a zombie going through the motions most the time.
Any ways please make sure to leave comments, notes, feedback. I want to get your input. Good and Bad. It is still very raw, I do not have an editor yet. I am hoping my friend Karlin and Tony may help. We shall see.
“Grandpa Guy I will miss you! I look forward to seeing you in Heaven one day though! ”
Take care, hugs!