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Hungry
I have notice so many people are hungry now days. Not hungry by the lack of food, but emotionally, mentally, and physically. People are searching for something that will fill where they are lacking. But in things that won’t really help. Such as: Sex, alcohol, gambling, false idols.
We as the human race are at the time of major changes personally and globally. Change is hard and so many people are looking for something to cling to sustain them, especially, now around the holidays.
I noticed around Christmas I begin to think about the year past, all I didn’t accomplish, achieve, and am still lacking… I specifically seem to dwell on failures and what I don’t have yet in my life. For example, I should have a book done by now, I wish I had my boyfriend here to share the holidays with. As a result; I get more sensitive, cranky, and lonely….
But then Christmas Eve rolls around and I become extremely thankful for what I have, and all that has happened, and those in my life…. The holiday’s takes a toll on us: Families, friends, money, gifts you want to give and get, trying to prepare the perfect atmosphere for a few days….. It can be very overwhelming… One becomes desperate, anxious, hungry….. It just has to be “PERFECT”.
This year more than other years I realize people seem more then desperate, they are starving for acknowledgment, closeness, success, achievement.. Yet most are going the wrong way. Instead of turning to God, they are running to what they think will fill the void, only to find it growing deeper…
I have also realized that Christmas is one month out of the year, better yet only for my family about 36 hours of festivities… Then next we bring in the New Year, and the cycle starts over…. Nothing really changes……
This year I am choosing to skip the pity party that seem to have already started and go straight to that thankful atmosphere. By doing so, I lose a lot of wasted time, and by choosing to be happy, I hope I can help others be happy around me…. But it starts with a choice. I have to choose to change. It is not going to be easy, but nothing really worth it is easy… I am not going to dig a hole and burrow in my emotions; instead I am asking God for hand up, and joy to replace the stress, grief, loneliness, and frustration….
I am filling up on God’s word, I am eating the preaching’s of the pastors I love and drinking in the scriptures my friends are sharing… I am not close to becoming full yet, but I am also not starving anymore, not in the way I was before. I wish I could feed everyone this way too. So that they will not be hungry anymore! I pray for all the lost sheep out there. The people who don’t know what they are looking for…
I want to be a good example of Christ and who He is, so that the hungry people around me can be fed…
I urge you to look to God to fill your plate. Not the internet, not the tv, not shopping, nor in other people. What you’re looking for can only be found in one place… In Christ! I do not know how to explain it however once you let Christ in your life changes and you no longer fill empty, if you truly let Him in… I still feel lonely, not in the same way…
Don’t wait till Christmas to unwrap this Gift. It’s yours now, waiting with your name on it. For God so loved YOU, He gave His only Begotten son, Jesus Christ, so that who so ever believes in Him, shall have everlasting life. ~ John 3:16
If you already have Him in your heart I suggest you reevaluate your relationship and do as I am and submerse yourself in His word! Give yourself the best Christmas of all, and remember the reason for the season. He is the greatest comfort!
God Bless you,
Merry Christmas~
♥ Amy Jane ♥
Tomato Soup…
I would sure love a bowl of that right now.. Mmmm Tomato soup, or Tomato with rice soup, Cream of Mushroom, and Clam Chowder are the soups I like most. However Cheese and Broccoli soup, Potato Soup, and French Onion are good too.
Anyways.. Before I have to go to the store…
I went to work on one of my books 2 days ago and could not find word 2007 anywhere I panicked.. I did a search and every thing.. It would not let me open any of my books! So I took a deep breath and stayed off the computer for the rest of the day. The next morning I tried again, with no luck… Out of frustration I shut off the power and walked away… A few hours latter I tried again and there it was! That was so weird… The same thing happened to my moms computers… I think it was a bug..
I have been sick the past few days, I can’t seem to find the right copy of my book. (bad me for saving it 4 times in 4 diff places) It is probably on my desk top and not my laptop anymore. I will have to look in the morning..
It has been a long week and I am going out of town this weekend… I really need the get away… I want some peace and quiet… It is funny for the past two weeks I have done nothing but wanted to sleep and my body is fighting that but it has been great for writing though.
~Amy Jane
Life. Books on hold this week….
Hey All,
I know I just found my passion for writing again and have been at it but.. Life just keeps throwing things at me and I have been unable to find the time or the energy to write.
My family lost a pet Thursday night, which has been really hard on me. Charlie our dog was close to me, but it was his time. He lived a long good life, and he did not suffer much. In addition to that I had a friend visiting from out of town and was spending a lot of time with her, while catching my self up with other friends, and making some new ones. All while avoiding my home for obvious reasons.. (Charlie is not here any more and it was to hard to face the music.) Plus I went to the gym five days in a row, for almost three hours each time. So I would only be home to sleep.
Unfortunately that has caught up to me and I think I have a cold now.. If not that, All I want to do is sleep. And I felt nusas when I ate… I know I am not dehydrated…
So to ecover and play catch up on stuff, like my room needs a good cleaning. I will be taking all this week or at least most off from writng. Take care, and God bless you!
~Anjiu SutoMu