Category Archives: Faith

Anything on my walk of faith and my relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Along with thoughts, and Bible verses, written just for you!

Goodbye 2022 – Hello 2023


Hello Everyone 👋,

Long time no see! 

 

I started so many posts tis and last year but I didn’t finish or post 😕;  I went to go edit a few and post them but apparently they weren’t saved. It is quite frustrating when that happens. I couldn’t post them right away because I was on my phone and though it is great to write on the app  all the editing needs to be done on a pc. Otherwise it would look like a the post was drunk. Speaking from experience. I  had posted a few from my phone before but then had to re do them. I wasn’t near a pc for quite some time. Which is odd since anyone who knows me knows I love computers and enjoy gamming and writing on them.  Sometimes life likes to get in the way of your plans and if you have not experiences this then you are truly blessed.   We had a couple of family emergencies starting in July  lasting till  now. 

 My baby sister went missing. She is indeed not a baby anymore but she is previous to me all the same. She didn’t know who she was and every time we found her she would  disappear again. Finally she was found and taken in for observation and they  diagnosed her with  Alcohol-Induced Psychosis. https://www.banyanmentalhealth.com/2019/06/03/what-is-alcohol-induced-psychosis/

She had quite challenging adventure  from July till the end of December. Alcohol  is not something people should take for granted. I know not everyone is alcoholics, but it is still a mind altering substance.   It was scary how much it changed her personality and she didn’t know who or where she was for most those moths among other things. If you drink alcohol you need to be careful this doesn’t happen to you especially if you are on other meds. I can not go deeper into the story it is not mine to tell but I needed to tell that part, not just for your sake if you drink, but also  because it was such a miracle how God took care of her. He was with her everywhere she went,  getting her the help she needed and restoring her to not her former self but better then she was before.  I am still in awe of how God  did it. 

Let this be an example for you.  Don’t wait till you are in trouble to change how you do things you should start taking care of yourself now.  If you are depressed or addicted to something you  shouldn’t be because of depression  I am praying for you….  Depression is real and not everyone can recognize the signs. You may not even recognize you are depressed.  The battles of life are real even if they don’t seem as valid to some as they do to you.   A problem is a problem an issue is an issue…. How we deal with them is up to us. 

This is good advice ….. 

 

 You are a fighter a warrior a survivor! Even if you can not see it. Look at all you have accomplished so far. It may not seem a lot to you but it is a lot more then you would have done if you didn’t do anything. I used to  be very hard on myself comparing myself to others asking God why them and not me?  But I am not them nor are they me. We all have unique gifts and talents even if you do not see them others do and God does. If you realize it or not you impact other peoples lives by your actions  lack of actions,  choices, and words.  You leave lasting impressions  you may never realize you do. As I say often we are windows. Constantly watched examples if we want to be or not. I am not saying this  to add more pressure to you but its the truth. Another truth is you are loved! You may not feel loved or be around people who seem to appreciate you but you are loved. You are appreciated you are special! If you see it or not it is a fact! I strongly believe that! John 10 :10 says The devil comes only to steal kill and to destroy but I ( Jesus) Comes to bring life and to bring it abundantly!  God / Jesus / The HolySpirit want you to be happy they want you you be healthy  and whole . They want you you to succeed. They want your life to be full of blessings and  well full of goodness.  There is a real enemy out there who wants to see you fail fall down and to even die……. If you believe that or  not I believe it to be true. 

Anything you do to better your life that  you can do;  do it! Be it as simple as getting out of bed, (if you can I know not everyone has that  option) calling a friend, making dinner, going to the store and buying supplies, maybe sneak five dollars into someone’s hand anything you do-  do it knowing you are taking steps to improve your life. I have seen how bad it can be for some who can not do anything physically, I have been there too.  Every day I live I am grateful to have life even when it is hard. I try to do something to better my future every day even if it is just reaching out to some one i care about and encouraging them.  Your life is your life and it is what you make of it. I know some things can not be changed or moved at the time but you can prepare for when they can be and work on bettering yourself and who you want to be. So when you can  go  where you want or be who you want to be with ect you will be ready.  When you are faced with a bad situation you have a choice how to react. tho we are human and we have emotions  but we should do our best to react best or respond then best we can. If we failed then we  fix it tot he best of our abilities. 

One thing I have learned the most these past few years is no matter how much we plan things happen that are out of our control. Yes we need to do what we can to fix or help but where we cant do things like force someone to take care of themselves,  we have to give it to God.  It is not up to us to fix everything and honestly it is impossible. I found when I stopped trying to handle everything by myself and started asking God to take over things started moving and I started changing for the better.  Just some food for thought.  Prayer works and you are loved. Jesus is your friend as much  as he is mine, he was born, lived, died and lived again for us. For you! If you do not know Jesus Christ as your friend I suggest you read  the book of John in the Bible along with  Ephesians, and 1John.  Here is a great online bible with a app you can use for free https://www.biblegateway.com/

 

Goodbye 2022 and Hello 2023!

Merry Christ mamas and Happy new year everyone!

God bless you today and always!

ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane Sandberg ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯

Another Year.!


Hello Everyone,

Guess what, it’s my birthday. Yes, April First is my birthday. I wasn’t supposed to live but I did. Another year has flown by. I am truly grateful to be alive. Life has not always been easy. Honestly, life has been quite a struggle at some points. There’s been times where there seemed to be nothing but darkness. Times when I’ve had to literally and figuratively crawl to move forward.

Yet there’s been times of true miracles and blessings. I’ve been miraculously healed of being brain dead, and from four stokes. I have had some truly amazing and wonderful experiences. Such as: working with celebrities, going to college, hosting events, traveling – exploring new places, and worked passionately with ministries. I have dealt with losses and even depression at times. Especially the past few years. God has also given me loving family, man, and friends. I have always tried my best and trusted God with the rest. Especially when it comes to major life changes. We have to be careful not to miss those moments of God’s guidance, grace, and direction. Sometimes I wonder if I have missed a few. I know I m where I am supposed to be at the moment. Yet worrying about the past changes nothing. You have to focus on the future and enjoy the day you have. Because each new day is a precious gift!

I have really had a full life so far. I’ve been told that I have probably only lived half of my lifetime thus far…

Truly the future is so unpredictable. You can plan all you want but life has a way of throwing you curve balls. Be it in baseball or bowling, they happen. That is why I am truly grateful for God’s amazing love, for giving us Jesus Christ and the HolySpirit. My best friends. Without which I know that I couldn’t make it on my own. I understand that life isn’t perfect. It is dang hard at times! However, God’s timing and love are perfect. Tho at times it is very hard waiting for the answers we need / want. Sometimes things happened that hurt. But God is Love and God is good. My life is living proof of that.

1 John 4:7-10 KJV
Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God. He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love. In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son (Jesus) to be the propitiation for our sins.

Psalm 100:5 KJV “For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.”

It would be so easy to feel sorry for myself. Yet I choose to live with optimism. When you let fear, doubt, anger, resentment, and unforgiveness in. They can and will destroy your joy, hope, faith, love peace and health. The Bible talks strongly about guarding your heart. King Solomon said it best: “Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life” (Proverbs 4:23) With that said… It is important that you treasure the people who are in your life more than things and temporary trials. Those come and go but having people to share your life with is the best gift of all.

I ask you as your birthday gift to me tell someone in your life how much they matter to you. I feel there is too much anger, and resentment is going on in this world. We each have a choice to make a difference even if it’s only in one person’s life. Your effort counts. You matter and you will probably never know how much you truly matter, yet you are treasured and loved so much; By God and others! Trust me I know there are people out there who value you even if they do not show it. With that said……

!!!Thank you Lord for my life!!!

💕 I really appreciate you all. Your encouragement means a lot! God Bless You Today and Always! 💕

ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane Sandberg ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯

Hey There World…


Hello friends,       

It has been a bit since I said hello👋.

 Hard question to answer? It can be huh… You matter! Honestly you should be asked how you are more often. Sadly that isn’t always the case or possible. So here I am asking you.

-I am also here to say to you and I –

Getting back on topic, I thought I would stop by to say Hi. While giving an small update. I’ve thought other then just talking about what is going on around me and in the world, I’d talk to you about myself and some thoughts that I’ve had.

Where do I start… Hmmm. I am not in depression, tho I’ve been there before. Although sometimes I feel like I’m dancing on the edges of it constantly. Yet, I am always having to be on guard, staying strong looking for those silver – linings…

Which reminds me of a passage in the Bible. Stay with me please even if you don’t belive. I’m  not trying to sway you. I am a beliver in Christ, yes. Even if you are not, I wanna ask you to have an open mind. I wish share something that has helped me. Maybe it will help you. Maybe not… Please at least read the blog post in its entirety.  Thanks.

Psalms 23 <KJV> 

1 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

I’m not gonna dissect the whole thing. However, I feel it’s important to share the full character. What I want to talk about is this part- “Walk  in the shadows of death, I will fear no evil.”  I didn’t fully understand what the shadows of death meant for many years but now I feel like I do. I remember it like yesterday. I almost ten years ago, I was driving through a canyon. It was a sunny day out but the canyon cast a complete shadow over the long road that I was driving. Then suddenly it clicked for me. To me, that verse meant constantly surrounded by death, yet not dead. Not to be morbid, but true…

My life kinda drives that point home. I’ve had so many near death and serious life threatening situations; due to heath as well as just living. 

Do you want a current example being surrounded by the threat of death. Many people would say covid (whatever you want to call it.) is right now the major death threat. Many would also say that it is everywhere and its breathing down our necks constantly… It is a threat in so many ways. A perfect example for my topic. We try to live on but everywhere and everybody effective, affected, and talking about it. Why… Due to covid our lives have been turned upside – down and inside – out. Why? Because the threat of death is scary!

This post isn’t about covid tho. I am just trying to make a point the fear of death is truly scary. You never bern afraid of death before, never had it thrown inbyour face so dramatically. Lets be real death is scary point blank! No matter where your faith lies. And- if – when your always afraid of it – then you’re not fully living….  That verse Psalms 23:4 points out the true fact Death is everywhere constantly  threatening. To me that suns up depression pretty well too. Depression is a sickness based on fear, self worth ect… Always there hiding in the shadows waiting and wanting to attack! That sums up a lot actually.

With that said, It has not been easy for me to open up, let alone write for quite awhile now.

I haven’t been depressed, but I’ve been in the shadows of depression. For over a year now honestly. Not just because of Dad, but other things as well. I haven’t even touched my books in months. If you know me and follow me, you  know how important they are to me. It has taken me weeks just to write this post. I have been emotionally and a bit physically feeling like I am running  on fumes- out of gas.

Depression, fear, anxiety, and emotions, seems to been running  rampant. Fear, especially of the unknown, is really trying to take center stage. For a while it was successful at it. Not just for me, for so many otheres, I know and some I love, as well peopleI have briefly crossed paths with. Fear is a powerful enemy. Just as depression, loneliness and self-worth. All the above is more powerful now then ever… These stresses’ can really wipe you out, and severely damage your life. Not just mentally and emotionally, but also they can be physically crippling. I do not say that lightly. 😒

Usually its best to go talk to someone. I’ve got God, Jesus, and The HolySpirit. For that. This is my go to verse, the one I live by. “The Devil comes to steal, kill and destroy; but I come to bring Life and to bring it Abundantly! –John 10:10 Along with “I am the good Shepherd; the good shepherd sacrifices his life for his sheep” –John 10:11

= Jesus. Jesus is my Shepard. So I will fear no evil, like Psalms 23 says. Even when it gets gets hard.

Us – Believers / Christians ✝️

Personally I am just trying to adjust to a new lifestyle and re-figure out my place and goals. While I get through the grieving  process of loosing my dad, my dog and our cat last year. I do not like to mention or talk about the rough   hardships nor how negative it gets and feels at times. I don’t like to be weak or show weakness. But God showed me it is apart of the growth process and I needed to write about it.

That way I can help others like me maybe, you. I bet I am not the only one who feels down, and stressed too. But keep fighting for yourself, keep looking for the silver linings in life. They may be small but they can have huge impacts, if not now possibly later.  Either way they’ll encourage you to smile even if its just for a moment. Trust me. I know. That one smile is a small step towards more smiles.

For my fellow belivers  in Christ -Not my art but appropriate.

I remind myself everyday of all the  accomplished and stuff I have been through.. which is a lot… Also that I have a purpose and I owe it to God,  myself and my loved ones to stay positive and to keep smiling through it all. Especially when I don’t feel like it.  I suggest that you also remind yourself of your own accomplishments big or small. Along with your survivals as well… I highly recommend you build yourself up especially when you don’t feel like it.

Here’s a few  pictures  to briefly recap some of the hardships that I have lived through.

These images are proof if I can survive this I can get through the current and forthcoming temporary challenge too.

Its hard for me to be vulnerable. I truly try to stay tough and cheerful. But when I don’t express myself I end you ferling worse then before or have an emotional moment. I tried to keep all the moments  captured in images correctly ordered. It is a little hard to do via my cellphone. Sadly lost a lot of pictures due to computer and phone issues. Including the involuntary removals from social media sites. Thus, I don’t have many online anymore. I’ve learned that you just have to make the best of what you have. Easier said then done, I know… A lot of theses pictures are from previous blogs I’ve written. Some I may not have covered here but in preson, but will in my books. Don’t forget thatI and my mothe. Have some Video blogs on www.deeplyrootedinhim.net

  Now here are some more positive memorable achievements and moments from my life so far…

This is not all I’ve survivied or accomplished. I don’t have the time or space to go over each event. I have years worth of posts here from instagram and Facebook as well. For you to read if you really want to know more. I promise to keep  working on my books; those which I pray will change and help your life in a positive way. Not every day is promised so all I can do is give you the best I can and trust God with it.

I realized in doing this post just how much I’ve gone through and how little I’ve opened up about. Repression always cones out in some form. Sometimes not in the best complimenting ways. Thus it is better to talk about what goes on and what you neded. You matted. Don’t take the people in your life for granted, and open up to someone.

We are not alone. I  have friends, family, and a wonderful man. Even if i was by myself I have my faith in God. I see Jesus as my bestfriend. With the Father, Son, Holy Spirit, in my life. As you do too if you so desire. That gives me and you a reason to keep moving forward. 

I wake up and thank God for a new day. One full of possibilities and  chances to spread  love -joy, be productive, and spend time with the ones we care about.  Its not always easy for sure, but its better to try then give up. My passion is to spread love and joy. To encourage you that you are treasure. That you are loved and mattered especially to God.

Here are some places you can reach out to if you don’t know who to talk to or don’t want to discuss anything about it with people close to you…

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The mental health issues related to our lockdown and the pandemic are especially hard for people with depression. NAMI, The National Alliance on Mental Illness have a 24 hour helpline: 800-950-6264

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 https://www.nami.org/help

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NAMI offers support and education programs for families and individuals living with mental health conditions. NAMI recognizes that the key concepts of recovery, resiliency and support are essential to improving the wellness and quality of life of all persons affected by mental illness.

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〰️Lifeline
We can all help prevent suicide. The Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals.

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org

ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane Sandberg ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯

The Forth and Last leg…Part 1


Hello My Friends,

 

Now I am in California.

I’ve been traveling for about a month now. It has been quite the experience. I have had a much-needed breather and vacation. I am sad it is coming to an end.  I have finally made it to California tho!!! I was moved almost to tears when I first got to Azuza where my aunt once lived. I had planned to visit her there but wasn’t able to visit her in CA at all. I only was able to visit her after she had moved out of state.  It was a strange feeling finally visiting the town after many years of waiting. I felt closer to her, altho she is sadly no longer with us. Azuza was her home through some of her biggest life and career roles.

Azuza, CA

 

This past month has been about rediscovering myself and developing my faith. It has definitely been an answer to my prayers. I am pleased to say that I feel truly blessed and joyful again😊. I found joy and experiences in things I thought I couldn’t have for myself. I am truly grateful for this opportunity and endeavor of courage. I thank God for opening the doors and making ways for this to happen. Azuza was named after the Azuza Street revival in LA. There are numerous books on the revival.

 

 

Like the revival, I felt closer to God in California than I expected to. I had heard how bad that stare was faith wise the for many years…  But there was this cross that as erected up hight somewhere. No matter where we went we could see it. It gave us, speedily me such peace…  

It really moved me emotionally and reminded me of the movie Paul Hogan did.  Titled “Almost an Angel” I suggest you watch it. It is definitely one of the best movies I have seen! I wish they made more movies like this! 

 

 

 

Honesty I did not have as much time to write like I thought I would. However, I did work on my books when able. There was so much to do and take in! I mean look at this hotel!!   It not only had a covered pool it had a swimming river that went under and around spots.  I wish I had been able to swim… They also have gardens all over inside

 

I spent some time in Anaheim with my sister and her best friend. 

Then we went to long beach to visit it with her friend and her family. I learned and participated in brewing coffee according to her friend’s home country’s customs. It is something that she does with company and gatherings. She roasted unroasted green coffee beans in a small flat iron pan/bowl over a burner outside. (Something we do with popcorn seeds.) When they were brown she then cooled them with a fan on an on a plate. Proceeding to grind them in a mortar and pestle. Then brewing the coffee in a traditional clay pot with water and some seasoning, topped with a horsehair plug to keep it from over boiling. Finally, when done she poured each of us some with a little cream if and sugar if we wished in tiny cups. It took a long time to make but it was well worth it!  I wish I hadn’t have lost the images I took. Here is one I found as an example of the brewing jug and drinking cups. Kinda reminds me of a Saki set and jug, tea set, or Tai coffee set.   

If you are interested in learning more about different ways different cultures do coffee you should go here. https://www.culturallyours.com/2019/10/12/traditional-ethiopian-coffee-ceremony/

And Here:

https://www.thecoffeebrewers.com/cocurifrarwo.html?fbclid=IwAR3jdCQf_DSSaJ7RcNafsfRBsGRziKIx7eiUMe4LV3wyDQ2oQk-CPX7EBUs

She said she was sad she hadn’t any popcorn because she usually serves both together. It was a truly beautiful experience and she and her family have an amazing story. I loved each and every one of them ❤! 

 Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

 

 

TheThird Leg of the Trip part 2


We went to a different part of Arizona and on the first day at the hotel, we went for a walk to find a place to eat. And we came upon this Mexican restaurant. It was very modern and lots of metal art. The food was great and it had a nice very open and airy environment.

With a sense of humor to top it off.

On the last day in Arizona we decided to go for a walk and to go inside this beautiful church thst caught our attention… 🛐 St. Mary’s Basilica: The current church replaced an earlier adobe church which was built in 1881. Building work on the present church began in 1902 and was completed in 1914. The church was dedicated in 1915, and listed on the National Register of Historic Places as St. Mary’s Church in 1978. The oldest Roman Catholic parish church in the greater Phoenix, Arizona, area, it was the only parish in Phoenix until 1924 and is home to Arizona’s largest stained glass windows collection and a 26 rank pipe organ built by the Schantz Organ Company. Its the thrid oldest Catholic curch. ThecFirst is in St Augastingng Florida.

This structure literally took my breath away! Absolutely beautiful inside and out. Truly Spanish Colonial architecture of the Spanish colonization of the Americas. 〰️

I am not Catholic but I fully believe in The Father, The Son, and the Holy Spirit.! This church was beautiful and full of peace. Just because I am not Catholic does not mean I don’t love the Lord as much as they do or vice versa. We just walk different paths of faith. I am more of an evangelical Christian. If I have to label it. Tho I would prefer not to. We all have unique relationships with God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. What matters most is accepting Christ into your life and heart ❤. Not because you have to but because you want to. Jesus loves you and as you are. He is always with you and your bestfriend if wanted. He is my bestfriend for sure!

On the side of the church was a poster for their all saints day festival. We were a day too late to check that out but we saw all the decore form the event still up in the garden. Very interesting since I have never seen one before in person. Too bad I lost the pictures.

 

We were staying at this super classy highrise hotel with a restaurant on the top floor in Pheonix Arizona. It was by far the fanciest hotel I have ever been to with indoor concerts constantly going on as well.  On the very last night we made a reservation at that rotating restaurant The “Compass Arizona Grill”  it was quite the experience with very good food. We felt a little awkward tho since almost everyone there was a couple and there were definitely some proposals, anniversaries and birthdays going around… Along with a spectacular fireworks show. It was different then Seatle’s rotating restaurant. They have a bar or a restaurant you can go to.  We ordered crab cakes and the cheese fondue which came with fruit, bread, and cheese to dip.  They also severed some of the best home backed and variety of slices of bread I have ever tasted, very unique The ones I remember were: , pumpkin, regular roll, grain, and sweet-spicy pepper. bread YUMMY! Normally I can not do spicy peppers but I dipped in the cheese,  it was great and not too spicy for me

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Stay safe and God blesses you today and Always!!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

Here I go again!


First off let me say sorry for not being on Facebook or any social media much in months. I just really needed some me time off line, and off the computer. I will be working on that tho.

Guess what? 🛩I am off on another adventure! I didn’t think I’d be traveling again. Especially so soon… 🚗 Wow! 🙉

I was asked to join my sister this time on her work trips. I will be away for about a month. I feel really blessed to be able to travel so much. I get to visit some of you and some new places as a bonus.🤝 Exciting right.! 🥳 I am overwhelmed and looking forward to it immensely. I left home yesterday and will be back sometimes mid November. I already miss my dog.

I also plan to take this opportunity to get some writing done. 🗒 I’ll have an abundance of inspiration 🤩 and some quality quiet time. I already spent six hours doing so today. It took a while but I finally got the equipment, I needed for my Mac. After losing my work due to update malfunctions, human error, and again for some unknown reasons… I’ve had a hard time getting into writting again. This time around I’m gonna be extremely overprotective of my work. 🔐 I am very determined to finish theses books! I think they will be better then before, because of the passion I have. I am putting all my heart into theses books. When they are done I hope you will enjoy.

Life is to short to let opportunities slip by. I wish I had done a lot of things differently. I did some really great things in my past so it’s not all discouraging… But I shouldn’t dwell on the past.🤭 I am who I am because of that past. I am pretty awesome too!😋 Thus, I am gonna be brave and not let fear hold me back from making the most of life. I will have courage and not hold back. I will trust God and make the most of what I have while working towards my dreams and goals. Remember- people are precious to me, especially those who I am close to. Just because I’m working on me doesn’t mean I’ll stop caring about you! 💕

👱‍♀️I feel I leaned a lot and grew in may ways on my last trip. I look forward to seeing the results and enjoying this one as well. I better get to sleep now.

Take care and be safe! God bless you today and always!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

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You are a Warrior


HELLO ALL 💕Good Day,

No matter what your doing this weekend, working or playing – Smile. It is a a choice we make. To let things get to us or to smile and move forward. knowing you can and will survive – whatever your going through: Rude people, things keep going wrong, etc. Whatever it is, know tomorrow is a new day. Look for the good in the bad, smile and show the world you won’t let anyone but you control how you feel. That to me is what a real warrior does. Now go have an Awesome weekend!!

💙 Amy Jane Sandberg 💚

This Happened…


Hello, new and old friends. For those of you who are new, I have was born with Truncus Arteriosus, a congenital heart defect. I was the third person in the world to have my whole heart rebuilt, I have had three open-heart surgeries, been in two comas, had four stokes one of which caused me to be brain dead when I was twelve.

Here’s a short book I wrote about my medical past, including being brain dead and in a coma. On sale until September 27th.

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https://www.amazon.com/Amy-Jane-Sandberg/e/B00NF9F0OY/

I’ve been doing great recently so I thought. Yet, I wasn’t. Things were falling back in to place but I was just sick and tired a lot. I started having what I thought were “new panic attacks”. I’ve had my fair share of varied panic attacks due to medical PTSD, they are also hereditary on my mother’s side. Theses “New Ones” tho, I had none of the usual symptoms other than my heart racing for a few mins to a couple hours. Usually, they only happened before bed and when I woke up. I had been dealing with “New Attacks” for almost a month. I had no pains and no stamina. I thought I was just out of shape, so I kept trying to be productive, but when mid-afternoon came around I was spent.

When I went to doctor for antibiotics July 16th 2019, I needed for a trip I was preparing for. I was having one of those “new attacks”. I met a medical student who started asking me a ton of questions while waiting for the doctor. They were not unusual questions for a med student to ask me. I told him all about my history and what was going on… (I was there anyways right. Just be honest and tell him I’m having a new panic attack.) He then asked me more random questions. I don’t remember them all. I told him what I told you above, he took my vitals then left the room to get my primary. Who in turn came in to immediately run an EKG- Electrocardiography -It’s a test that records the electrical activity of your heart through small electrode patches that a technician, nurse, or doctor attaches to the skin of your chest, arms, and legs. My doctor then disappeared with the results and came back on the phone with my cardiologist. Honestly, at that point, I was getting scared. I called my mom and told her something was up and asked her to pray.

My doctor put my cardiologist on speaker who proceeded to tell me my heart was racing pretty fast and my rhythm was irregular. I started praying under my breath and asked how serious it was. My cardiologist told me he wasn’t able to answer that question because he’s not there and instructed that I go to the hospital with a trustworthy Truncus Arteriosus colleague of his. Because he was four hours away and his colleague was only two. I was worried and teary-eyed at that point. He told me because my heart was racing and irregular.

I had three choices:

🔹️1. Go to the local Er and have them transport me via ambulance.

🔹️2. Have someone drive me as soon as possible. 🔹️3. Do nothing hope it stops but he’d rather I not risk it.

I asked if I would need surgery. He said he was pretty confident it could be handled via medication. So I pulled myself together and went to tell my parents what was going on, only to find my dad already in the waiting room.

I chose option 3. I convinced my dad to meet me at home then we’d drive the two hours there. Honestly, an Emergency Room Ambulance transfer would’ve taken longer and been a bigger hassle for everyone. My mom opted to stay home because it was already 5pm and she knew dad would probably stay the night. Someone had to watch the dogs. Even tho she wanted to be with us, I told her it was fine. I reassured her that I didn’t feel bad in any way, I was just tired. When we got there it was close to seven-thirty pm. The check-in and triage went smoothly because my cardiologist had called in ahead.

At around midnight I was still in the Emergency Room, they gave me an IV for fluids because I was dehydrated and drew lots of blood. After running a bunch of tests. The doctors on call told me I had a flutter in my upper arteries and my heart rhythm was out of wack. They gave me some medicine to see if they could calm my heart down and wanted me to stay overnight. I was really nervous, something like this happened to my dad a few years ago after a heart attack and he ended up needing a defibrillator implant. They reassured me I wasn’t having the same issues as he had.

I found reading my Bible out loud calmed my heart a bit which was very good. My rhythm went from dangerous to not so good. Honestly, I don’t read my Bible as often as I should. Yet, it goes where go and where I sleep always! I find having my Bible close, especially at night gives me peace.

They soon sent me to a room and gave me a heart monitor to wear. (I posted pictures below) All night long they were coming and checking my vitals. I barely slept, I was praying non-stop, and reading my Bible.

The next morning after running more EKG tests and taking more vitals, they realized my heart rate was not changing and my rhythm was not getting better. When they first told me I had a flutter I thought they meant a generic flutter. I’ve had PVCs before, due to my odd heart so I really didn’t think anything was going on.
(PVCs) are -Premature ventricular contractions: extra heartbeats that begin in one of your heart’s two lower pumping chambers (ventricles). These extra beats disrupt your regular heart rhythm, sometimes causing you to feel a fluttering or a skipped beat in your chest.

Apparently, A flutter stands for Atrial flutter – Your heart misfires its electrical impulses, bringing on an irregular or fast heartbeat in the upper chambers of your heart. Making it to fast or to slow. To slow is more dangerous. PVCs and A-Flutter are common for CHD (Congenital Heart Defect) people. A Flutter is different from Afid which is what my dad had among other things.

Around 11 a.m. they came in to discuss a plan. Really – I didn’t have an option. If I wanted my heart rhythm to be good again without surgery of sorts. I had to agree to their plan. They would do an ultrasound, a TEE, and if all good tbed shock me via a defibrillator.

Around two pm they arrived to do an ultrasound- (image using sound waves to produce pictures of the inside of my heart externally.)

Then they prepared me for a TEE (-A transesophageal echocardiography. Which is a test that produces pictures of your heart. Using high-frequency sound waves (ultrasound) to make detailed pictures of your heart and the arteries that lead to and from it. Unlike a standard echocardiogram, the echo transducer that produces the sound waves for TEE is attached to a thin tube that passes through your mouth, down your throat, and into your esophagus. Because the esophagus is so close to the upper chambers of the heart, very clear images of those heart structures and valves can be obtained more detail than a standard echocardiogram can give them. The sound waves are sent to your heart by the probe in your esophagus that are translated into pictures.) I was escorted to a small room after and I was given me some liquid to gargle to numb my throat, and some to swallow so they wouldn’t damage my throat. The anaesthesiologist used to be a nurse for children with Congenital Heart defects and she was talking me through it with great patience. This test had to be done In order to make sure I had no blood clots in my heart. I got panicky when my throat went numb. I thought I wasn’t breathing. (Remember, I went in sick with sinus issues, and was breathing through my mouth mostly.) The woman reminded me I had oxygen on and it was currently at 97%. She then gave me a little sedation to calm me down. While telling me that it is quite common for people to feel that way. (I wondered if that was true tho.) When I was able to swallow again, my throat still numb, I told her. She said good, and that she could see the cardiologist coming. He introduced himself, told me the plan, asked me if I was good. The next thing I knew I was waking up a couple hours later. I’m pretty sure they had said that they were going to keep me mostly awake for the TEE, but I guess they were worried I couldn’t handle it. Thus, they put me completely under. I won’t lie, I’m glad they did.

While I was sedated. They didn’t see any clots and went ahead with shocking me. Which put me back in my normal sinus rhythm and my heart rate is mostly normal now. So I was told.

My throat was sore from sinusitis, but after that, numbing stuff ect it actually felt better… My back and chest were a little sore the next few days but only because they did the defibrillator shock to reset my heart. I was in the hospital a total of five days and six nights. All the while they closely monitored me and searched to find a bata blocker that would work on me.

I’ll admit it. I cried a several times when I was alone, due to fear of the unknown and known overwhelmed me. I was also subpose to be going on a big trip. It was important to me for various reasons. The biggest reason tho was mainly to see my man and meet his family. They had told me I’d be able to still go. I shouldn’t be in the hospital more then a day. Obviously that wasn’t the case. I’ve been wanting to go on this trip for years… I am not exaggerating. Something was always getting in the way tho. And now I was was was in the way. That was one of the biggest reasons I was upset. I sad I had to cancel / postpone the trip yet again. I had no choice, and no I dea when I could go again tho. They said I shouldn’t be flying for at least three months. Thank God I purchased a ticket with insurance. Even tho I was finally getting better. I was heart broken.

When I couldn’t sleep or relax. I’d flip through my Bible and read random passages writing down anything that stood out or encouraged me. Like- Mark 5:36 “Daughter, thy faith has made you whole, now go in peace.”

I was an IV blood thinner, not heparin. I don’t know the name (I’m allergic to Heparin and Warfarin. It is genetic and rare… I posted info and links below.) Along with my Coumadin just as a precaution.

I was later given a shot like ENOXAPARIN (LOVENOX), DALTEPARIN (FRAGMIN): <A Low molecular weight heparin injectable anticoagulant blood thinner used for both the treatment and prevention of clots. They are produced by chemically breaking down heparin into smaller-sized molecules. But something newer instead, but non-heparin based.>

Called: FONDAPARINUX (ARIXTRA): Fondaparinux is a synthetic blood thinner, acting similarly to low molecular weight heparin. It blocks the clotting activity of a blood-clotting protein (factor X), and it is administered via an injection under the skin once daily. Because at one point my vain blew from the IV leaking into my skin. I also had bruises all over too from all the blood draws they were required to get. I have small picky veins from being poked since I was born and often they like to be difficult…

My whole arm up to my elbow became an ugly dark purple for almost a week… The pictures make it look better than what it really was. They had to keep an Iv in me so they switched arms.

One of the last mornings I was there, I felt bad because I scared a phlebotomist or Iv tech when I was half asleep by being a brat. I haven’t had the best expeinces in my medical life and sometimes PTSD is a b…… I made sure I apologized and explained I wasn’t fully awake and was thinking something else was going on at the time… I think after that they were a bit scared of poking me tho… However, most the time I tried to stay positive and in a cheery mood. They were one of the best hospitals I’ve had to stay at ever.

Again, I posted links below for those of you who wanna know more…

I usually don’t talk about what goes on with me anymore. I was really shaken up. I’ve been so good for so long, with minor scares. I put off going to the doctor mainly I guess because, I was afraid of what they may say. I was also worried about my family and all we’ve been through lately. I didn’t wanna cause them more stress.

I asked so many questions. I especially asked them about a cause or trigger that could’ve avoided this happening. He said there really was none, it’s just something that happens to congenital heart patients; especially those with Truncus Arteriosus.The doctors said A Flutter can be pretty common for Trunkis Arterosis and other CHD patients. If not caught in time it can really damage your heart. I really didn’t think anything of it because I had no pain and panic attacks are common for me. It was a really scary realization of what was going on within me. It’s a good thing they caught it before it got worse.

Please take care of yourself and if something doesn’t feel right or it is out of the ordinary, make sure you talk to a doctor.

Other than postponing my travel plans some good came from the hospital stay. I always believe good can come out of every situation, even bad ones… I was able to meet some wonderful people including some “Zipper Sisters ” from Facebook. They were such a blessing to me and a nice distraction.  (Again I had pictures but they seem to have poofed I will add them when if I can find them…)

 

I am doing so much better, just getting used to the new medication. I see a big improvement in my activity, abilities, and sleep. I’m still a bit sore and my arm is finally starting to look natural again. I am still shaken up from this experience and having issues sleeping alone at night like when I got home after my second coma….

With congenital heart defects, you need to see your cardiologist regularly. I was told I may never have another attack again, which I pray will be true! I’m going to make sure I take care of myself. I’m now on Metropol the Beta-blocker and beginning to feel like my old active self again for the most part.

God bless you all and thanks for reading and supporting me!


🔗https://www.webmd.com/heart-disease/atrial-fibrillation/arrhythmia

🔗https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/8887.php

🔗 https://www.medicinenet.com/atrial_flutter/article.htm

🔗 https://www.ihtc.org/injectable-anticoagulants/

🔗https://www.ihtc.org/heparin-induced-thrombocytopenia/

🔗https://www.ihtc.org/intravenous-anticoagulants/

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

You are a Warrior!


Hey You-

Yes you. Guess what…. You are a warrior! Did you know that? I don’t say that lightly. I mean it whole heartedly. Life may have treated you badly. You may have been bullied. You possibly were: physically, mentally, emotionally, or even – sexually abused. You may have had a tragedy or two happen. You mY have a physical problem, or health isues… (maybe all the above.) Well I’m talking to you…. Yes, you….

Those experiences, or situations you have gone through don’t make you weak. They are not your fault, and God is not punishing you!

Mathew 9:10-13 <New American Standard Bible -NASB> Then it happened that as Jesus was reclining at the table in the house, behold, many tax collectors and sinners came and were dining with Jesus and His disciples. When the Pharisees saw this, they said to His disciples, “Why is your Teacher eating with the tax collectors and sinners?” But when Jesus heard this, He said, It is not those who are healthy who need a physician, but those who are sick. But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire compassion, and not sacrifice,’ for I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners.

Maybe you thought that God was mad at you, or you had bad karma… Well I want to set that straight…. Take a deep breath… This next part may be hard for you…

You need to tell others how you are feeling or when you are in need. If you don’t speak up and tell someone what’s going on. We can’t help you. Speaking out or asking for help. It takes great courage. Doing so it is important. PLEASE talk to some. Because- You matter, you are important, and you are loved.

It really angers me when I learn of people hurting others. Especially if it is physical or sexual violence. My mamma bear wants to come out and retaliate. I have been witness to some really bad people’s actions. It makes me cry for those who are hurt and hurting. Knowing how I feel about it, and knowing God loves us all <John 3:16> I can’t imagine how much more it pains God to see his children suffering an hurting each other.

If you have suffered from anything its not from God. <John 10:10> You are a survivor! You are a warrior!!! Use the trails you have been through to encourage and help others. Just being you and living your day to day life, you are an inspiration!

You are strong, you are loved and you are not alone! You are a warrior!!!

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

I’m back… I did a Vlog.


Hello  Everyone!

It has been a while. I know I missed you. Did you miss me? I have been taking a break from the online world for the most part. Other than some side projects, which I  will get into later.  I have been really bad and been on facebook more than this blog. I have a lot of backdating to do. (meaning I need to move things I wrote here.) Let us be real.  There is a lot I need to update and change here and elsewhere. I know not everyone uses Facebook, Instagram or social media.   Thus,  I will be working a lot on that and my books.

Moving on to the point of this post, I  did a vlog!  A video blog…  I have been practicing with a side project which I will tell you about next time.  Right now tho I would like to share this with you. This came from my heart and was really personal. It took several tries to finish and I was really nervous.  Here it is from the other blog and ministry I  am doing with people:

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DeeplyRootedInHim.net

 

Every year or on my other blog I reflect on my life and I write about the growth I have been through. This year I decided to do something different based on the ministry we are getting off the ground. I  did my third official Vlog,  where I  am on camera speaking to you all. I was really nervous. I pray that me stepping out in faith really bless you all. I love you! You  Matter!  Don’t forget that…

Here are the references she mentioned in the video.

📖Bible Verses:

✞ John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. (New International Version)

✞ Hebrews 13:5-6 Make sure that your character is free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, “I will never desert you, nor will I ever forsake you,” so that we confidently say, “The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. “What will man do to me?” (New American Standard Version)

✞ John 10:10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I have come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. (King James Version)

✞ John 10:11-12 “I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd sacrifices his life for the sheep. 12 A hired hand will run when he sees a wolf coming. He will abandon the sheep because they don’t belong to him and he isn’t their shepherd. And so the wolf attacks them and scatters the flock. (New Living Translation)

✞ Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (New International Version)

✞ Psalm 37:4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. (New International Version)

✞ 2 Timothy 2:1-2 You then, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. 2 And the things you have heard me say in the presence of many witnesses entrust to reliable people who will also be qualified to teach others. (King James Version)

╰ღ╮ Amy Jane Sandberg╰ღ╮

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