Whoa There!

Hello my beloved readers,

How you doing there? I know its been awhile since I’ve posted something. I did not win the contest for the college scholarship. They did two drawings. I was quite disappointed. I have everything ready to go and I do plan on going back to college, I guess now it just isn’t the time. The first class they want me to take when Im able- is worth six credits which is awesome! the collage only does one class per semester which is awesome, and you’ll still be able to get your degree within 2 years. Because each class is about two classes are more combined. However I cannot afford the $3000 for each class plus the book fees. I started to apply for fasta but it caused my health insurance to be discontinued. Thus I had to drop it and reinstate my health insurance. You can guess which one is more important to me. I do have an international business degree so it’s not like I don’t have a college background. It’s just not something that I can put to practical use at this point in time in my life. So I’m going to stick to writing books. And I pray to God that they sell well and that I finish them promptly.

I haven’t had much time to write currently, with extra obligations have coming up. And I keep getting sick. -sigh- So I have found myself turning into a hermit again… It’s really hard to keep up with people other than family. It seems texting is a thing of the past lately which is okay with me because I prefer phone calls,it’s so easy to misinterpret a text. I really do love people but when I keep losing my voice because of being sick and not having my computer close at hand for gaming and skype activities. It’s just hard to keep up with people.

Seems every time I make some serious headway in the direction I want my life to go things get put on hold almost always for good reasons lately but it is quite frustrating. I’m sure some of you agree that you; find having your plans derailed similarly frustrating. I hope I’m not the only one who isn’t where she would like to be in life. I am extremely grateful for where I am but I wish I would have achieved more of my dreams that I seem to have so far. It’s easy to get jealous of other people who are happy there succeeding and have found their niquce in life. I know where I want to go, but getting there is the issue. I am the only one to blame for a lot of things I could have done earlier. But as the opening to one of my books quotes: I would not be where I am today if I hadn’t made the choices I made in the past. Furthermore I like where I am at right now.

I’m sorry If you don’t find me as cheerful and peppy as normal, but I’ll have you know I am a trooper! I am a soldier in God’s army I am a fighter I am NOT a quitter and I always push on. No matter what I face I keep moving forward not just because it’s the only direction I see, but because going backwards gets me nowhere. Dwelling on the past only brings up heartache and misery. When you look forward you find hope and something to look forward to. You can’t change what’s already happened you can only change what you do with every day you live and breathe. Don’t waste it being angry and upset about what you can’t change because you’ll miss out on so much that life has to offer and more importantly you will miss people who want to be a part of your life now if you continue to live in the past.